Sometimes, we have to admit that reality shows that requires voting just ain't fair.
Usually, it's not about who's the best, but rather, who's the most popular.
And today, sadly, once again i face this fact. Gilles Marini, consistently on the TOP of the Dancing with the Stars chart has lost to Shawn Johnson.

Well, surprisingly, 4 months ago when the casts of the new season was revealed, I knew immediately it was going to be Shawn. I mean, the history of DWTS says it - all Olympian or sportsmen/women usually wins it. And therefore, I knew Shawn is going to win before it even started. Then when I saw Gilles, I thought, wow...maybe this time, things would be different, because Gilles is really really BRILLIANT.

Gilles, however, is French and has a really small fan base. (I'd say maybe none?) I mean, have you even heard of Gilles Marini before this (or even now?) Sadly, no. But he is hot. He has a cameo in "Sex and the City: The Movie" and apparently in "Ugly Betty". See, I don't even notice him before. But now, I'm definitely gonna. He's really hot...especially in Paso Doble! OMG!

So with his small fan base, it is difficult for him to get votes. But...he has managed to get to the FINALS and that means HE IS REALLY REALLY GOOD!!! And the best part is, he is paired with one of my MOST favourite pro dancer, Cheryl Burke. What a combination....!

The thing about Gilles is, he is the ONLY male celebrity on the show, throughout 8 seasons that I actually love watching. Usually I focus on the girls dancing, I mean, duh...their legs and movements....so stunning. But Gilles, he is the only male celebrity who can shake it and dance like a PRO. He's fluid and his body movements are beautiful. Seriously...if you actually watch DWTS...you'll know what I mean.

Cheryl has always been great in chereography, even though I do think that Derek and Mark and Julianne are also good. But Cheryl is the more serious or conventional kinda chereographer, whereas Derek, Mark & Julianne are younger, so they are more fun and usually they add hip-hop styles in their moves. Cheryl is great in creating a dance with storylines and also always brings out the character or personality of her celeb partner. So she always score with the judges on that.

For example, Cheryl & Gilles 'Quickstep' is most amazing! It made me love them and most importantly, made me love Quickstep which I usually think is boring. In their QuickStep, Gilles play Clark Kent and Cheryl plays Louis...it's brilliant. You should watch it on YouTube. There are so many other dances that wowed me...I can't describe it all.
When they dance, you really feel the emotions. I've watched many many "Dancing with the Stars" clips on Youtube...but no one ever captured me with their emotions during the dances. Gilles taught me what is translating emotions into dances. Every step he takes in his dance, he delivers in emotions....you see he feels it. He is an ARTISTE! That makes him different. It is boring to see some dancers because there is not personality or emotions in the dances, but there is with Gilles. I don't know how to credit his techniques (but I'm sure they are good) but I know that he is a true performer.

I think with his ability to carry his emotions into his dancer, he is definitely a FANTASTIC actor. I think it's a waste that he doesn't get to star in more bigger roles. I'm really looking forward to seeing more of him because i think he is really talented. i hope the show opened up more opportunities for him.

But today was sad because Gilles lost to Shawn. Sigh....VERY DISAPPOINTED. I admit though that during the finals, Shawn's freestyle was exceptional, but Gilles' paso was also BRILLIANT!...but then again, sadly, the freestyle is like the determinant factor, just like how the American Idols are judged based on their final song. DARN IT! But Shawn is also one great dancer, she is also very fun to watch. And so CONGRATULATIONS SHAWN!

Gilles has been on the TOP for the most weeks and gained the most 30 in the season...so in my heart, HE IS STILL THE WINNER & THE BEST MALE DANCER THROUGHOUT ALL 8 SEASONS!!!

I'm just so sad that I won't be able to look forward to another of his dance. Sigh...
Love Gilles & Cheryl all the way....


-tammy the awesome-

Going to LJMU and being in UK is already stressful enough considering the fact that I have to deal with so many assignments in just 3 months.

Dad is making it worst for me. Sometimes, i guess it is so stressful that i feel the need to please and live up to my dad's standards, even when i feel that i've given my best. And what he says always makes me doubt whether I'm good enough.

I was talking to dad about how some of my friends are reconsidering the decision to further their studies and like how one of my friend has found an alternative course which he plans to do. I was just saying these stuff because i thought of sharing some conversational topics with him and not to tell him that i'm also having the same thoughts. He then continued with his lecture and then added a few lines that hurt me so bad.

He told me that from the way he is seeing things, he feel that my new bunch of advanced diploma friends are influencing me. He feels that i'm making a decision because i want to stick with the big group. Even when i made my decision to stay in TARC to continue my advanced diploma, he feels so, I guess.

The thing is, I'm so tired of people not believing in me. I hate to be a follower but no one understands. All of my decisions are 90% based on what I really want for myself. If i have to take a different step from the rest, i will. I did after Form 5 when i left all my best friends for TARC...all of them went to Form 6 except me.

Honestly, I've never budged from my decision to continue my studies in the UK even though i find it really stressful for me. And honestly, i was just telling my dad how stressful i am because i need to confide in someone at that moment and i guess, it shouldn't have been him. Never ever should be i guess. SO many times have i opened up and ended up feeling worst. WHat's the point anymore? They say talk to your parents. I guess...sometimes, it's not that simple and then all you have got is your friends. And they don't like your friends.

My advanced diploma results have deteriorated yes. I'm not finding an excuse but i honestly feel that it's the new grading system. If the results were to be graded according to the old system, i've gotten straight As because all the B+ i got used to be As. I guess now i know that my previous As were not high As. I feel that maybe that's my standard but dad seems to think it's my new bunch of friends. Again I don't know what to say. Am I really at fault here?

Now i feel like i have to really to push and strain myself in order to prove that it's not my friends' fault. Of course I aim high for my degree but I also don't want to have my expectations too high. But now, I guess, nothing but a first class is good enough for him.

I love my friends. I think my classmates are the coolest people on Earth. They are playful but not bad people. It is true that many times they lack time management lar, but hanging out with them is the best time of my life. And my parents don't know that i guess. I just feel that they need to cut me some slack. I just wanna be YOUNG and have some fun. But in some ways, I feel so tied up.

My dad don't tell me directly that he doesn't like me hanging so much with these friends, not until today, but that means taking away the happy moments in my life. Plus, it's not like i joined them for all activities, just selected ones and he is already having issues. During exams, I don't even hang out.

Today I came back from a gathering with my friends. Considering the fact that i'm already 22 and that i do have a bunch of quite playful friends, I came home a bit late, around 11.30pm. I know that my parents are worried, and i always try my best to go home early, but sometimes, we just 'love' each other so much that we wanna hang out longer. So eventually I still am a bit late.

Mum says that dad is conservative, and therefore there are a lot of things that he doesn't accept. I always thought that dad is somewhat reasonable, maybe he is in certain things, but he never fully understands me. That's why i feel no matter how i try to open up, he won't understand what i mean and maybe I don't get his ways. Maybe he has gone through what it's like being my age, but we are different individuals with different wants in life. So, i guess, maybe my sis could be right, just don't tell dad everything. Cuz why wanna hurt yourself, right?

I guess on the outside, most people see me as confident and happy-go-lucky. I am usually cheerful and seems like problem-free. It's like they think that I won't feel hurt in any way. My family all thinks i'm naive and stupid but whatever I do, I do for a reason and a personal judgment which they won't understand. My judgment could be stupid to them, but if i feel that it is something that i can live with and take consequences for, i think i've made the right choice. Call me naive or whatever but this is me. Idealistic but rational at times. The good thing is, like i said, i get over things quite easily so i'll probably be better tomoro.

Whatever said, I know that I hold no grudges towards them because i know that at the end, they are always there. But i guess,

Whatever it is....today ended badly with people doubting me. Hopefully tomoro, I'll be happier....



Tammy c

In reply to all JT's comments:

Thanks JT for your comments....I know that very itsy-bitsy biblical knowledge from some readings and documentaries i watched on YouTube. I am really really into the myths and stories behind Gods... Greek Gods and also Jesus. It's not whether I believe or not but i just love to search stuff abt these historical stories...very very interesting!

Anyway I think I get what you mean and in fact, if you explain that way right, abt how there were people helping Jesus during his way to crucifixion, i think i feel now that maybe that's another similarity of Superman and Jesus. Jesus needs a minor help from passersby in order to continue his larger cause, just like Superman.

Now thinking about it, maybe getting some minor help is not exactly a weakness. But I guess towards to end, the only thing that differentiates a HERO and GOD is that heroes might have still one or two weaknesses despite being great but GOD (in some context) have none. But you might be interested to know that Greek Gods all have weaknesses, in fact quite a lot. Like Apollo, Aphrodite and even Zeus. I guess because they are all once humans....born with powers.

And also i agree with your point about Aslan. Besides the point you mention, also the concept that when you need Aslan and call for him, He'll be there. But it's like he's always there, but not physically visible. only those who choose to believe that he is there and is always there will get his message. Like Lucy...she believes in Aslan's presence.