Monday, December 18, 2006
3 open days in 2 days...WOW, i learn a lot!
i mean, it's a bz weekend but it was a lot a fun definitely..i met Mr. Paul Moss (yes the judge from Malaysian Idol) and learnt so much about my dream station - 8TV
then of course i also met JFK (not The ex-president of the US...plz) a Malaysian DJ who co-founded x-fresh fm.. i must say he is kinda cool...as in he is involved in alot of stuff n the way he speaks is really...u know like "Yo! Yo! watzup kinda thing!" i was kinda worried that my dad can't take the new "hip-hop" kinda talking style but he was cool with it...(surprisingly..lolz..but then tat's how kids today talk anywayz)..
Paul MOss's talk was just fantastic....i learn so so much... although his way of delivery was a bit 'lecture-like' , it was very interesting... i can really see his passion for what he's doing...
hmm..for me after listening to wat Mr. MOss has to say, i kinda know more about which department i wanna get myseldf involved in...basically i like production, marketing & branding.....well i really wanna do them all!
as for JFK, i guess the most important thing tat repeatedly coame out from his mout is:
CONFIDENCE comes from KNOWLEDGE, come from EXPERIENCE, comes from EDUCATION! education of course can be from various sources.....
and CONFIDENCE is of course very important..hmmmmmm....AM I CONFIDENT? lolz
well today or rather yesterday (since it's already 2 am) we hanged out at UTAR in Sg. LOng and met one of my future lecturer...well, he said he will be teaching me if i go to UTAR...so i guess yea...he sud be my future lecturer....Mr Zachary Roland...
Well i guess it's gonna be really exciting, i mean wat's to come in futrure for me...and that is of course i do well in all my exams and qualify for a scholarship & all..
plus hopefully my laziness to start moving would evaporate ...
these days i must say, i'm really lazy.......i have stack of notes untyped and to top tat...i am hooked to the games on the INternet....COOL!?????? sigh....
well give me a break ok? i jus finish weeks of torturous assignments & and wat we call exams....and be4 u know it..next week i'll hv work on a new assignment......sigh..bowling for soup sud write a song call "Assignments never End" or something instead of "Highschool Never Ends"
wateva it is..PRESERVERANCE (did i spell this correctly) & PERSISTENCE!!!!!! i need to DO THIS!!!!
dad mentioned abt the importance of building a portfolio.....well, hmm....maybe i sud start or do a simple radio show? well i've been thinkin abt it....i mean yea of course da results wouldn't be like the best or anything...but i guess it's gonna be cool to try..hmmm...plus i really hv to brush up my IT a little...it seems tat IT is very important in Broadcasting as well......not-so-good to know lolz...well ok now... yea i got to do somethin abt my laziness to handle computers...
back to college stuff....hmm.....
yea law is as boring as ever...and the exam was....i dunno 45 minutes of crap on paper...i just pray that i did well man...nearly was caught cheating...for some stupid reasons...luckily the lecturer knows me & my 'GOOD' image (do i hv a good image...i dun even know)
the BUDDHISM Class (read Malaysian Cultural Studies) is stil on and yes my tutor getting more and more annoying ....i guess he kinda sense tat no one likes him...n he also wouldn care less abt us anymore...which is actually doing all of us a HUGE favour...
i jus dun understand how he can turn something simple into something so complicated tat no one gets it......in fact...i think he's the only one who gets wateva tat comes out from his mouth
the problem now is..HOW DO I IMPRESSED HIM (on the test papers) SO TAT HE WOULD GIVE ME GOOD MARKS? so far, i only managed to embarrass myself twice in front of him because first of all, i dun get him & 2nd-ly, he doesn't get me..GOOD WE DUN GET EACH OTHER!
well i've took my "Buddhism exam" (cultural studies exams)..luckily NO QUESTIONS ON BUDDHISM......if not...We're screwed cuz if we give simple answers.....we're dead..he will give us lecture on how we are not thinking deep enuff & all & would later say tat at our diploma level we do not hv to go to such analysis yet.....YO DUDE.......wat are u talking abt again?? so do we think & study deeper or not? i mean...if we study deeper, it shouldn't be a prob wit proper guidance...but if u were the one givin lessons on Buddhism...then i dun think there's a point at all...no one gets u even if u are the DR. or prof of Buddhism or wateva...MY DAD can give a BETTER (in fact excellent) explanation to me on what BUddhism is....COME ON!
i mean.,...i'm not against the religion...in fact, i think religion is very important...but wat i feel is ..the teachings sud be delievered in a clear & direct way so tat no one is confused & misunderstand the actual teachings....
like how Islam is in some countries...i believe that Islam is a great religion taht does not look down on women or encourage men to treat women like s***! (mind my language)...i am very pissed of whenever i hear tat in countries like pakistan or wateva places where women are rape or mistreated by men....i mean...i really really wanna help these women stand up for themselves.....why sud we endure such ridiculous laws tat men are allowed to torture us women? i mean i heard tat a woman is raped by her husband's creditors.....as MANY TIMES AS THEY WANT because her husband cannot pay back his loan.....wat the hell is this? because of men, we have to suffer? CODSWALLop!
and there's anotehr even more sad case where a ...i can't remember but i think it was abt 15-year-old girl who was raped because of a crime her wrongly accused brother did......wat are all this....i think we sud really really stop all this...n i am really glad tat there are organizations out there that cater to this problem...one of my goal is to be part of these organizations to protect women who are bullied and help women realize their full potential ....well Action speaks louder than words la.....so we'll see how i fair...lolz...
okies...the lighter side of things..........hhmmmmmmmm
i hv no time for movies....so i can't really share my latest movie ..hmm...wat should i call it..? movie frenzy or something...wateva....i wanted so bad to watch Step up..but then jus need to find the time....oh yea...watched '2046' by Wong KAr Wai - supposed to be a very complicated movie..or maybe the proper word sud be artistic film.. and yes it is VERY ARTISTIC..thanks to my fren, i got i guess most parts of the story.....i must say, it is definitely not my choice of film...ya say wateva...i mean if u dun get the movie...it's sad to say tat the part u'll enjoy most is the *ahem* 'not-so-decent' scenes...why would u enjoy it? well for guys..the reason is obvious...for me..the reason is...i guess that's d only part i understand ..sigh....
well back to some music maybe......hmm...F.E.R.G.A.L.I.C.I.O.U.S rockS....and 'CHasing Cars' too....i heard Shayne West on tv ....he sounds cool...plus he's cute too so i guess he would be my next target hehhehehe...".LIPs on an angel!" nice too.......
well i'm sure if u r a fan of HItz.fm, you will definitely have heard these songs ....jus check it out....and of course u gotta check out the PSAs on XFresh FM....hillarious...but u got to understand Malay of course....
ooo...n yea.......jus a shoutout to Caecilia in Germany HAPPIE BELATED BURFDAY!
tat's all i guess....i've been lzy to write ya (guilty)...even though i hv internet access right frm my room now lolz...but plz forgive me.....now at least i'm updating it...besides it has only been a couple of weeks =D (but it seems like so long already..weird)
With Lots of Love & Hugs & Kisses & Chris Richardson's scent from BabyT ;
Saturday, December 02, 2006
i must say this semester is another f***ing busy sem..
it's like you don't even have time to breath...every week there's stuff to do..i really dunno whether it's a good thing or bad thing..
i mean, keeping myself bz is good cuz it make time flies faster...especially when you are actually enjoying what you do..on the other hand, it could be extremely tiring and stressful...like what i'm experiencing now is the mixture of both..
at times, i do enjoy what i do, like my assignments for examples, i have loads of fun doing some of them...but i hate exams and of course some assignments sucks too..
for example, i had a great time doing my "film and society" assignment, where we have to study films cuz i get to study one of my fave malay movies "Gol&GIncu"...studyin about your own favourie movie is just easy (but i'm not sure whether i did it right or not) cuz u know the movie well..
the mass media law assignment on the other hand is killing me..this is the piece of ass that i'm workin on now..i mean it's like, who would actually wanna become a lawyer if LAW was THIS HARD??? Reese Witherspoon made it look that easy in LEgally Blonde..sigh
well wat else, oh and "Malaysian cultural & practices" is a BIG BORE...the lecture is ok but the lecturer is...darn slow...the tutorial classes is like BUddhism lecture (no offence to Buddhism, i'm a BUddhist myself) ..i mean the tutor is always talking about Buddhism n no one gets him...
he thinks he's real smart but ...he's a laughing stock..
well anywayz all these work loads have caused tremendous stress...and lately, i've been really down..though i dun think anyone knows..
i've been going through insecurity probs..it's like, i feel that i'm not good enough...not pretty enough. not tall enough, not cool enough......it just sucks...i always get this jealous feelings in side of me..especially when i'm so stressed out...i dun like that feeling at all..
well i always think that maybe that's life, maybe a lot of people out there feels the same way and i always always try to pray to God to help me overcome this period of times..very hard..
my dad says, it's all in hte mind, try to eliminate jealousy and desires, but it's hard, for me my desire is to always be the best in the things i wanna excel in...i always feels that it's important to have competition in life, so that you can always improve, but some people dun think so...like my friend Yean Fun, she said that's not the approach to life...but still i do believe that yes, in some aspects of life, you need to have competition...but true, competition hurts!
well i gueses that's just me, myself and i...i just have this idiotic thinking that hurts myself ...(right now...i'm actually panicking...cuz my dad is awake and it's 5 am n i'm not asleep yet..am i going to survive??)..
okies got to run........cuz dad might come out soon!! ARGH...my heart is pumpin fast...
take care peeps!!
~TAmmy OUt~
With Lots of Love & Hugs & Kisses & Chris Richardson's scent from BabyT ;
