Yesterday night Katharine performed and by now i think she's anxiously waiting for the results...
i think she did really well...but then yea... i might be bias... i like Taylor too but then i really hope Kat wins cuz she's the most talented idol i've ever witness on American Idol... she sounds magnificent and it would be a total waste if she settle for second...
i have no idea what all the Malaysian out there are thinking.. i mean GOD... they are all so into Taylor Hicks.. ok Taylor is good in a way... he's different but sometimes his wackiness is ...TOO WACKY and not serious...
and i feel that the third round of the competition is a bit unfair simply because the song written for Kat(Title: My Destiny) just wasn't as good as Taylor's...they should be singing the same song...and not a different song...When you give them two different songs, you can't compare the two...sigh...Simon Cowell's comment at the end of the show was so disappointing.. HE actually said that Taylor had won American Idol...sigh...i was so sad but overall... i still think that Katharine is fabulous...I love you KAtharine!!
I'm so so nervous for Kat...simply because..she's like my fave idol throughout the whole American IDol...i've been supporting her since her audition...i've noticed her since then i knew she'd make it far...she's the one that kept me so hooked...every week i look forward to hear her sing cuz her voice is so natural and unbelievable...
(right now i'm actually listening to her...)
Then there was this girl, whatever her name is... who called Hirz.fm and said that Katharine flirts alot on the show...WHAT THE &#Q*(%)&#Q* ???!!!!!! Does she actually knows the meaning of flirt???!!! Katharine never flirts a single bit...if she did she would be with Ace already...and Seacrest...
If you actually take notice...Kat is the only contestant who waves at her fans...GOSH!! You call that flirt?? I bet that girl who said that is the biggest flirt of all...if i ever found out who the freaking caller is...i'm gonna make her said sorry for what she said about Kat...i don't freaking care if she prefer Taylor but just don't accused Kat of flirting.... WHAT THE %&*)Q#&%#)???!! just because Kat is pretty, the girl who called said she is flirting...come on!!! Kat is where she is now because of her PURE TALENT!!! GIVE ME ANY EXAMPLE OF KAT FLIRTING!! GIVE IT TO ME!!!
She's just really darn good.... ARGH!! i really feel like strangling the idiot caller...
Kat can do it no matter what... let's forget about that caller... ruins my day...
Kat's the only singer on idol that can make me cry when listening to her sing... NO IDOL HAS ACTUALLY DONE THAT BEFORE... i actually cried twice!! Her voice is just so..... oh...undescribable...!!

Anywayz if All Idol Craze here!! I really want to wish Katharine the Best!! NO matter what the results turn out to be... i still feel that Kat deserves the title and i would definitely definitely buy her album...
Taylor...hmm.....i think he's a fun performer but i don't enjoy hearing him sing... i mean, minus his wacky dance moves and everything, vocally he's just pretty good, but not Excellent i feel..i mean what do i know, i just prefer Kat's voice...
KATHARINE ........... ILOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!!
And Marion, I hate to say this, but she's really getting on my nerves... she doesn't like Katharine, whatever... it would really help increase ur popularity if you stop criticizing other people's idol on national TV..Thanks... NO OFFENSE MARIOn.. you;re still a great host but then i just prefer Kat than your choice of idols...

Now some of Kat's songs that i would like to introduce you guys to:
Think
I have Nothing
Somewhere over the Rainbow
Hound Dog/All Shook Up
Come rain Come shine
Someone to watch over me
I believe i can fly
Black horse and the Cherry Tree
I can't help falling in love with you..

all of her versions of these songs are great!! try to download or buy them...
my fave....hm....all....hahah....but i don't really like her rendition of "I ain't got nothing but the blues"...others are great!!!

And another great news!!! I finally bought my "Save Your Last Dance for Me" Soundtrack!!!
Darn great... I love it!! Brings back a lot of memories... hmmm..they also hv a bonus VCD that include the MTV and interviews with cast... but i was really disappointed because there were no subtitles...great!! now i really hv to learn Korean...how in the world would i know what they are saying?? sigh...
anyway if anyone can offer some KOrean Lessons...feel free to contact me!!
the next item on my wish list??? hmm....the drama "Wonderful Life", also starring the pretty Eugene...
then i would also like a Korean Dictionary...(which i'm definitely saving to buy soon...cuz it's not really that expensice unlike the VCDS)
anywayz i guess that's it for now...in about 5 hours time...the next American Idol will be crowned!!
I really hope all the Americans agree with me that Kat can really really sing!!!!!!!!! Plz i really hope that all of you voted for KATHARINE MCPHEE!!!!!!! I need this!! I love her too much!! (I'm not a lesbian by the way..just so you know haha)

Take CARE peeps!!!!

~Luv Tammy~
p/s: plz dun mind my foul languages in this installment...i'm just over-excited and nervous and mad at the comments given about Kat...so so sorry...
and as for the Synopsis of the korean drama...well...still workin on it...college starting so not much time =)
and lastly...let's all pray to GOD that Katharine will have a very very successful singing career in the future and can win some grammys and top all the other IDOLS!!! YAY!!! I love you KAT!!

~I hv McpHEEVEr!!!! i'm crazee~

With Lots of Love & Hugs & Kisses & Chris Richardson's scent from BabyT ;

Argh... did i ever told you guys how easily jealous i can be? I guess not... i get jealous quite easily.. i guess that hv to do with me being a Leo... i don't really trust starsigns but i do read horoscopes... i mean i'm not like super superstitious or anything but i do believe that being a Leo made me this way.. i love attention and i kinda want to be the best..not in everything but in the things i want to be...
but i have really low-self esteem... unlike a Leo...haha...i akways feel that i'm not good in anything...seriously...what am i good at?? crap?? yea i guess that... i'm pretty useless in everything...i suck in sports, i'm not pretty (quite ugly in fact), i'm short, plump and immature...what else...and childish....that's why i envy girls with brains, looks, talents and all i don't have... i tried so much to feel grateful, yes i am grateful... but it's just that, there are days when just thinking about how fortunate you are don't work... like today...
sometimes you really ask GOd... why do some people have everything... why??? why is it that I lose out in almost everything...??? i was never active or popular in school...well fine...i console myself by saying that i have great friends...but then those popular girls have great friends too...
i never got a chance to learn ballet, or whatever talent i want (but i did a bit of art class) because my parents aren't rich...but OK i console myself that i have great parents and that if i actually took all those classes, my schedule would be packed...(i guess i'm lazy as well) i also tell myself that i can do that all one day when i have my own money...but i really admire and envy those who can play piano, dance and ice-skate and whatever and i can't at this young age....
my sis, always the better one...she's always on top of me... when we were young, everyone says that she's pretty and i was never the pretty one... nevermind... she was always the better one in sports.. and i can't even kick a ball... she won all the certs representing school in competitions, and eventhough i said i dun mind....sometimes i really feel like a loser... the only thing i guess i'm better than her is my addmaths and that i smile more than her...i always try to forget that she;s better than me in so many ways but i just can't....and i'm always the one who's immature, dependant and always making hasty decisions... she the calm, mature one ...WHY??!! WHY AM I SUCH A LOSER??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
not only to her... to everyone out there...i dun even dare compare myself to other greater people....

why am i talking about jealousy... well i sort of went through some of my ex-classmates pictures and all of them look so pretty and matured now...and they are studying overseas...and i'm of course jealous...why am i this way?? i'm just hurting myself i know....
i'm so sad...as i'm writing this, i am actually crying... but i do believe that i will get over this ... like Yun Soo said "there's only one sad day"..... but i'm really really sad...watching Yun Soo (Eugene) is also very stressful cuz she's so pretty....sigh....

Anywayz let's talk about American Idol...it's been a while since i talked about it...YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Paris Bennett is OUT!! Katharine is in the Final 2...SHe's darn good...i guess she just have to learn to control her nervousness because when she's nervous i guess that's when she has pitch probs... i think Paula isn't too fond of Katharine... i dunno...i dun see Paula giving Kat the compliments she deserve... whatever...i really hope Kat Wins ...but actually if TAylor wins i'm ok with it but of course i REALLY REALLY prefer Katharine MCPHEE!!

My sis and I argued again...YES!!! she's sometimes a pain in the "u-know-what"... i can never give my opinion on things...whenever we watch reality shows , we will quarrel...
once...while we were watching America's Next Top Model, we argued...why?? here's why:
One of the judges, Janice Dickenson commented that a girl is short and therefore shouldn't be in the competition...
then i was like...WHAT?? how can u eliminate her just because she's the SHORTEST (she;s tall but among the others she's considered short)... u never give her a chance at all... u should judge her also by her pics right?? besides it's just the beginning of the show and you guys should evaluate her further first... and of course she's in the TOp 10...if u think her being short doesn't qualify her to be a model, then why put her in the Top 10??
well that's my opinion... and my sis is like... of course the judge is right... if you;re short, that's too bad.... WHAT?? just because you're short, then you are discriminated?? (strange hearing that come from someone as short as her) i am shorter than my sis and that's why i feel all the shorties... so i dun agree with and we just went on and on...arguing or points... no one won...whatever i still feel that i won...haha... the girl in the competition wasn't like my fave but i just feel that i hv a point... and at the end...the girl wasn't eliminated and she didn't win...cuz her pics weren;t that good...
then in the same program, but another season, we argued again about another contestant...but that one is too complicated but i win too cuz i hv backup...me n my cousin agrees that my sis's fave contestant is a b**** who is jealous of her best friend and backstab her best friend....

then it was Survivor and American Idol 4...my sis, i had no idea why she thinks Carried Underwood is better than Bo, but whatever i still think that Bo ROCKS!!! My mum too... and almost a lot of Malaysians except my sis...haha...
then today was The Apprentice...i was giving my opinion that i feel that the producers did stuff or tactics to spice up the show...like create probs and controversy among the contestants....and my sis said that Donald Trump is professional and wouldn't do all this...GOSH!! Come On.... anyone would do stuff to make their shows ratings go up...especially people who's good in BUSINESS and MONEYMAKING - Trump for instance... no offence...if Trump doesn't want to make money, he wouldn't even care to produce the Apprentice... and come on, admit it...all reality shows hv tricks....who would want to watch a reality with no controversies?? tell me??
but it's just my opinion...but my sis would never listen to other people's opinions...but others have to listen to hers...I JUST can't stand her sometimes...ARGH!!

i guess that's it for now..it' s really late.... i hv to reflect on my life before going to bed...
i shall post the next part of Save Your Last Dance for Me soon...
those who are enjoying it...A BBIG THANK YOU!!!
For those who find it annoying and too darn long.... A HUGE SORRY!!

I loVE All Of You!! MuaX!!
*sorry for having you read this...I KNOW YOU ARE GOD!!!! Thanks!
I pray for a better day, everyday!!

~LoVe TamMy~
I REALLY REALLY WANT KATHARINE TO WIN!!!
SHe's so pretty....sigh...

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Part 4 is here… hmm…wondering what happens next in Save Your Last Dance for Me??
Well, Yun Soo is off to start another adventure of hers in Seoul… in order to get back the love of her life… will she succeed?? Haha…well I shall tell you…
Now before this, Hyeon Yu had suggested to his father that he wanted to start an exhibition hall in order to attract more customers… and his dad had supported the idea…
The exhibition hall had been completed and they were looking for staffs (promoters) to work there…
So Yun Soo went for an interview in Global Group for the post of an exhibition promoter… now Manager Pu and Qiang Mi had help Yun Soo lied in her resume, that is stating that Yun Soo actually knew Japanese and English, when in fact, Yun Soo only knew very little of both language… Qiang Mi told Yun Soo not to worry because the hiring decision will be made by Manager Pu… and Manager Pu will help her out for sure… all Yun Soo have to do is memorize a brochure of the company product… while Yun Soo was memorizing, she managed to help a few customers even though she does not know anything about the company yet and this was seen by Zheng Tai Min, who feels that she is a good promoter… anyway Yun Soo then proceed to the interview room … she waited there and when she wanted to go to the toilet, she accidentally spilt water on the Leader (remember Qiang Mi’s leader, that female joker in the show) … so the leader was pissed …as usual… she screamed and complained…bla bla bla…and she was one of the interviewer…
And what Manager Pu didn’t know was that Hyeon Yu also wanted to interview the candidates … GREAT!! Remember Hyeon Yu doesn’t like Yun Soo, especially after she slapped him… and after finding out that Yun Soo lied in her resume, Yun Soo is toast… Hyeon Yu told her in the face that she would not be hired… pity Yun Soo…
This was all witness Tai Min and later while chatting with Hyeon Yu, Tai Min saw Yun Soo’s resume and wanted to help her…

While Yun Soo was disappointedly crossing the road, coincidentally, she was nearly knocked by Tai Min’s car… they recognized each other and sat down somewhere for a little chat… Tai Min asked Yun Soo why was she so careless when crossing the road,,, and Yun Soo told Tai Min that she was just upset that she didn’t pass an interview… because she lied in her resume… She also told him that she had to enter the company for a very important reason… and that she would do almost anything, using whatever tactics needed just to be in the company…

after the chat, on her way home, Yun Soo received a call telling her that she got the job… HAPPY!! HAPPY!!…
So the next day Yun Soo went to work, the two girls who entered the interview room with her were shocked to see her because they thought she was not hired after lying in her resume… so both of them were unsatisfied with Yun Soo and said that she had backup helping her in the company (which is not exactly untrue… it’s just that Yun Soo didn’t know that she had backup)…
Anyway, Yun Soo just did her best and concentrate working but she was always bullied by the two girls…the two girls were jealous with Yun Soo’s achievements and plot a scheme that caused Yun Soo to be slapped by a very important client…
Yun Soo then confronted the two girls and the 3 of them fought… all this coincidentally witness by Hyeon Yu… ‘GREAT’!! Now Hyeon Yu misunderstands Yun Soo even more… Then Yun Soo apologized to Hyeon Yu… and Hyeon Yu asked her to concentrate working and not create so many problems in the company…
The Female Leader (let’s call her specky)… Specky was also not please with Yun Soo, after hearing rumors of Yun Soo and the director and Manager Pu and the body guard… yes even the body guard is linked to Yun Soo…all those ridiculous rumors and the spilling of drinks on her skirt and now the fight…Specky really dislikes Yun Soo and sent her to pack the stuff in the storeroom…
After a long tiring night… Yun Soo prepared herself to go home but heard a noise as if something dropped on someone… so she rushed to see who was injured and saw Hyeon Yu, she offered help but Hyeon Yu pushed her away… then she told Hyeon Yu that he must clean his wound to deter infection…but Hyeon Yu just wouldn’t listen…
Then he asked her what she wanted from him and why is she creating all this problems…Hyeon Yu asked her to tell him what she want so that he could give her whatever that is that she wanted and so that everyone can live peacefully…
Yun Soo told him that she wanted to continue working in the company and that she had a reason…then she left…

That night… Qiang Mi asked Yun Soo why are the other girls always targeting and bullying her… Yun Soo didn’t know at first but after thinking about it, Yun Soo remembered hearing one of the girls talked about the director backing her up…
So the next day, Yun Soo went to search for the director of the company… just to find out why he helped her get into the company… surprised she was to find out that the director is actually Zheng Tai Min…so both of them ate together and ‘communicated’ and Yun Soo asked Zheng Tai Min why he hired her… Tai Min then said that she was the one who said she needed to enter the company for a very important reason, using whatever tactics, so he wanted to helped her… besides, it’s no big deal for him to help her get into the company… Yun Soo then promised to work hard…

Ok I can only think til this part… I shall continue some other days… haha
This show is just great!!… I’m off to watch another episode of it..!! Take care!!

~MUAX~
:::: ‘Sarang’ Tammy::::

Sarang – Love in Korean…
P/s: I dun think they actually use the term ‘Sarang’ to end a letter or whatever but heck… who carez!! Haha… SMILE ALWAYZ

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Ready for more “Save Your Last Dance for me” Synopsis??

Read on if you are… forget it if you’re not….
Ok… I’ve been talking about Chang Ho and Yun Soo so much that I kinda missed out some other parts of the show…remember Zheng Tai Min, Hyeon Yu’s (Chang Ho) close friend whom he treated like a brother?? Well, Zheng Tai Min is all this while plotting to destroy Global Group (Hyeon Yu’s father’s company)… and Tai Min is also in love with Hyeon Yu’s ‘girlfriend’, Xiu Zhen… so after Hyeon Yu’s “death”… Tai Min carried on pursuing the Xiu Zhen…but failed…
Hyeon Yu’s sister, (they don’t share the same mother) Hyeon Ting likes Tai Min but he doesn’t really like her… Hyeon Ting’s character is too straightforward, and therefore she always get onto people’s nerves… that’s why she’s not really likable in the show… but actually, she’s OK… she just love to hurt people’s feelings with her words…
Hyeon Ting doesn’t like Hyeon Yu’s mother because she thinks that his mother seduced her father… Hyeon Yu’s mum was a mistress until Hyeon Ting’s mum passed away… Then only Hyeon Yu’s mum became the official second wife… (Pretty confusing huh..?? haha) Hyeon Yu was 7 years old then…
I mean I understand why Hyeon Ting is this way…she has to protect herself by being sarcastic … I bet she feels insecure because her real mum had passed away and if anything… all her father’s assets will be given to Hyeon Yu … not that she won’t have anything (her dad still loves her)… but then I’m sure she feels lonely that she has no one on her side...
Xiu Zhen… is still waiting for Hyeon Yu, not wanting to believe that he is dead… hmmm…very loyal…but too bad I prefer Yun Soo …

OK back to Yun Soo and Chang Ho (Hyeon Yu)…yes they reconcile!! They sent Yun Soo’s father to the hospital and later his father gave in and blessed their relationship…
then Yun Soo was told by his father the reason Chang Ho wanted to leave and work in the farm was because he told Chang Ho to… and Yun Soo made Chang Ho promise that he will never keep problems like this from her… and that they will confide in each other no matter what…
HAPPY HAPPY… Chang Ho then asked Yun Soo to open their letterbox… (remember the letterbox Chang Ho made for their love letters..) … and inside is a pair of necklace called the Promise Necklace… its pendant is a round shaped locket and can be opened… inside the locket is a roll of paper, on which the sentence “A promise under this fir tree…even though I can regain my memory, no, even if I regain my memory and go back to my own world, I will forever love you”
Chang Ho helped Yun Soo wear the necklace and told her that whoever takes off the necklace will be cursed… and the only way to break the curse is to memorize and read the sentence to the other partner…

GREAT!! Now both of them are together but things always have to go wrong right?? There wouldn’t be any drama if both of them just live happily ever after… right??
Yun Soo then took her dad to the hospital for check-up and her father found out that he had critical lungs cancer… he kept the news a secret and asked Doctor Shen to keep it a secret as well… meanwhile… Tai Min went to Dreaming Forest … he was supposed to get that piece of land remember?? Since his subordinates couldn’t do the job, he had to visit that place for himself… so he went there while Yun Soo and her dad was away and he was shocked when he saw Hyeon Yu (Chang Ho) alive and was standing happily in front of him… well at least the person he saw looked like Hyeon Yu because Tai Min realized that Hyeon Yu doesn’t recognize him…Tai Min then feel that his status is threatened…if that person is Hyeon Yu, then no one can know about this as it would ruin his plans to take over and destroy Global Group…
After the visit to Dreaming Forest, Tai Min immediately sought help from his friend to help him find information on what happened to Hyeon Yu… the results told Tai Min that Hyeon Yu, now Chang Ho, met with an accident and lost his memory… this confirms to Tai Min that Hyeon Yu is not dead, he just lost his memory… besides, when he actually think back…no one can actually confirm that the burnt body they saw was actually Hyeon Yu…Tai Min knew that action must be taken …he had to destroy Hyeon Yu…

Anyway in the meantime, Yun Soo’s father asked Chang Ho whether he had plans to marry his daughter… to which Chang Ho replied that he never thought of marrying Yun Soo because he wanted Yun Soo’s name to be proudly printed in next to his in his real family tree…meaning to say… that he wanted to marry Yun Soo with his real identity and with his parents blessings… Yun Soo’s father apologized for not understanding Chang Ho’s problem… and then suddenly Yun Soo’s father coughed blood… Chang Ho who sent him to the hospital soon found out from Doctor Shen that Yun Soo’s father had cancer…Chang Ho was also forbidden to tell Yun Soo as Yun Soo’s father do not want to upset Yun Soo before his death…
So Chang Ho decided to get engaged with Yun Soo… so that Yun Soo’s father can rest in peace knowing that his daughter is happily engaged to the one she loves…
Finally the day of their engagement!!! Sadly… that’s the saddest episode ever… I still cried when I watched that episode for the 3rd time… it was a sad episode because Yun Soo’s father died just after their engagement…
Sigh… then it was the funeral and all… and later Yun Soo and Chang Ho were admiring their wedding pics and Yun Soo told Chang Ho that she would be fine even though now her dad is gone because she still have him…

Then came Yun Soo’s birthday and unfortunately that day was also the beginning of the tragedy that hit her life…
That day started normal… Chang Ho was preparing Yun Soo’s birthday cake and present while Yun Soo went out to send her guests to the airport… Remember Tai Min’s plans?? Yeah… Tai Min sent his friend to pretend to be Hyeon Yu’s (Chang Ho) brother that had been searching for him for a year and tell Hyeon Yu that his mother is very ill and that he should go see his mother…
All this bulls*** is to trick Chang Ho (Hyeon Yu) to follow him to a boat where he will be taken to somewhere… (Not indicated in the show)
Chang Ho hesitated to follow but then after hearing his brother told him how much his mother had suffered because of him, he decided to go… then Chang Ho tried calling Yun Soo but failed because she left her phone at home… so he left her a message saying that a family member had came and he had to follow his brother out for a while…

So Chang Ho followed that guy and reach a quay…he was pushed into the boat and Chang Ho then knew that he was tricked… he fought his way off the boat…and ran and ran and BOOM!!!!!!!!!!!! Chang Ho was knocked by a car. The police came and that guy dare not go after Chang Ho anymore… Chang Ho struggled to stand and wanted to walk home but he was hurt and later he fainted… Yun Soo who got the message called Chang Ho and waited…
When Chang Ho woke up… he found his memory!!! But forgot what happened for the past year – that is the memory after he fell from the cliff, the memory of Yun Soo and Dreaming Forest!!…Great!!! now he forgot about Yun Soo who’s waiting for him all night at home… Chang Ho then flag down a cab and went back to Seoul to his house… Xiu Zhen and Hyeon Yu’s mother was shocked when they saw Hyeon Yu back alive…!!
Tai Min was even more shocked!! His plan to capture Hyeon Yu not only failed but he even helped Hyeon Yu regain his memory…
And if Hyeon Yu remembers seeing him at Dreaming Forest, Tai Min is as good as dead… Fortunately for Tai Min, Hyeon Yu, like I said lost one year of his memory … he had no idea what-so-ever happened during that year in Dreaming Forest…
Anyway after greeting Xiu Zhen and his mum, Hyeon Yu fainted…
In the hospital… where Hyeon Yu lay after his full body check-up…Xiu Zhen was right by his side, thanking him for coming back…yea …good for her…pity Yun Soo who’s still waiting…anyway the nurse then came in with Hyeon Yu’s possessions – the necklace and some other stuff… Xiu Zhen saw the necklace and read the piece of paper (the one with the promise)… and knew that Hyeon Yu had a sweetheart during that year… great!! She felt threatened… I mean obviously her position in Hyeon Yu’s heart is not very deep…haha…so she hide the necklace and never told Hyeon Yu or anyone about it…

Later, when Hyeon Yu’s father asked Tai Min to find out who took cared of Hyeon Yu during that year (to give them money as a token of appreciation), Tai Min found someone to pretend as Hyeon Yu’s guardian during that one year period … so Hyeon Yu had no idea that a girl named Yun Soo and her father actually took care of him during that one year…
Anywayz after this memory lost incident … Hyeon Yu agreed to help his father with the company because he feels that all those bad incidents that happened to him are God’s punishments to him for not listening to his father…and he also promised Xiu Zhen that he will be with her and take care of her because she had waited long enough for him…

But Yun Soo was also still waiting for him… waiting and waiting…. Crying and crying…And one year had passed!!! Yun Soo still have no idea what happened to her beloved Chang Ho… she thought that Chang Ho had returned to his family and didn’t come back for her because his family must be treating him very well… so she misunderstood Chang Ho for being cruel but then she’s still so in love with him and still misses him a lot…

Then she finally decided to let go of Chang Ho (yea right… as if she can)
So she burnt all the pics of them together… while burning pictures of her and Chang Ho, her best friend, Qiang Mi…came…
Now Qiang Mi actually appeared in the show earlier on but I didn’t really mentioned her… because she wasn’t really important earlier on… Qiang Mi is Yun Soo’s best friend… she grew up in Dreaming Forest but went to Seoul to work once she graduated (where does Qiang Mi work… haha… u guessed it…Global Group!!)… Yun Soo on the other hand, stayed in Dreaming Forest because she wants to take care of her dad and also because she doesn’t really like the hustle bustle of the Seoul….
I really like Qiang Mi’s character because she is really really really a good friend who would do almost anything for Yun Soo… Qiang Mi personality is fun and she’s just great!! When Yun Soo and Qiang Mi is together, they really portray the close relationship between two best friends…
Qiang Mi’s mum is also another character that I did not mention… Qiang Mi’s mum is like a very close family friend of Yun Soo’s father… and she’s like Yun Soo’s aunt…
Qiang Mi’s mum appeared a lot in the scenes in Dreaming Forest but she’s not really important… but she’s a really nice lady who always takes care of Yun Soo and her dad…
So yea …back to the story… Qiang Mi went home to visit her mum and of course Yun Soo, and saw Yun Soo burning all the pics… Qiang Mi scolded Yun Soo for not letting her have a look at Chang Ho first (Qiang Mi had never seen Chang Ho before… so she doesn’t even know that Chang Ho is actually her company’s president’s son)… so that night while chatting Qiang Mi invited Yun Soo to go to Seoul with her to sort of enjoy herself since Qiang Mi is on leave… at first Yun Soo rejected but later was persuaded by Qiang Mi’s mother…so the next day… Yun Soo went with Qiang Mi to Seoul and Qiang Mi brought her shopping … and Qiang Mi tried to set Yun Soo up on a date with her friend, Manager Pu… Manager Pu is another hilarious character… the joker of the show… Manager Pu is also Hyeon Yu’s very loyal and trusted assistant…
Anywayz, the date didn’t happen because Manager Pu’s zipper spoiled and when Yun Soo found out about the date, she actually misunderstood Zheng Tai Min, who was there at the café, as the person Qiang Mi set her up with … anywayz, after the embarrassment she left the café without waiting for Manager Pu…

And while leaving, she saw …who else if not her Chang Ho or rather now back to being known Hyeon Yu… so she ran and chase him…but by the time she was at the entrance… Hyeon Yu was already in the car and driving away from that hotel entrance… Yun Soo gave a chase but failed to catch up… obviously!! with those heels…??!! So she went back to the receptionist and asked for that guy’s information… can’t get any so she waited there until late at night…hoping that Chang Ho would appear there again…she waited there the whole night and Qiang Mi was worried because she had no idea where Yun Soo is and her phone wouldn’t get through… when Yun Soo finally got home (Qiang Mi’s house)… she told Qiang Mi that she saw Chang Ho…and Qiang Mi was really mad at Yun Soo for being so stupid to actually wait the whole night for him...

The next day at work, Qiang Mi’s company (Global Group) is getting ready for the shareholders meeting… because there was a shortage of one worker, Qiang Mi suggested to her leader, a lady who’s another joker in the show…this leader is those sort of annoying and fierce spinsters…haha…she’s also really funny… she loves to scold and complain… anyway, Qiang Mi then called Yun Soo to help out, knowing that Yun Soo is definitely waiting in front of the hotel yesterday… Yun Soo of course doesn’t want to as she wanted to wait for Chang Ho still …but had no chance to reject… so Yun Soo went… and luckily she did because that company is Hyeon Yu’s father’s and the event is the shareholders’ meeting…of course Hyeon Yu (Chang Ho) will be there….
So, when she was asked to buy medicine at the shop, she saw Chang Ho (Hyeon Yu) walking into the company… she ran and grab him screaming his name… she kept saying that she’s Yun Soo, but unfortunately he had no idea who she was… so he told her that she had mistaken him for someone else… then left…
Qiang Mi then found Yun Soo and then scolded her for taking such a long time to buy medicine… then they both went up and then Yun Soo heard a voice talking … a voice belonging to Chang Ho…. Yes Hyeon Yu was speaking in the meeting room and Yun Soo saw him through a gap in the door greeting all the shareholders… Yun Soo then asked Qiang Mi who that man was… Qiang Mi told her that that’s Kang Hyeon Yu, the president of Global Group’s son and the perfect man… every girl wants to date him…great!! Yun Soo felt really sad…how can she, a normal Yun Soo actually be with such a great man…Kang Hyeon Yu??…Still she wanted to know whether Kang Hyeon Yu is Chang Ho…so after the meeting she rushed to the parking, and ran in front of Hyeon Yu’s car…luckily Hyeon Yu stopped in time… haha

Anyway she told Hyeon Yu that she wanted to make sure of something… asked him whether he liked basketball and making stuff with wood (Chang Ho loves doing this two)… and Hyeon Yu, who was pissed at this girl’s (Yun Soo) stubbornness told her that he had never played basketball in his life and that he never made stuff with wood before…hearing this…Yun Soo went and grab Chang Ho (Hyeon Yu) and said while crying… “ It’s me Yun Soo, don’t you remember??” and when Hyeon Yu replied angrily that he had no idea who she was, Yun Soo slapped him…(one of my fave parts haha) …then she told him that … if he wants to forget her, she would forget him as well…

Then Qiang Mi’s leader found out that Yun Soo had slapped Hyeon Yu – the president’s son and was freaking pissed… haha… later Qiang Mi kind of suspected for a secong that Yun Soo is lying about Hyeon Yu being Chang Ho because she thought that Yun Soo just wanted Hyeon Yu because he is the director’s son…but Qiang Mi, being such a great friend trusted Yun Soo after that…

OK now Yun Soo was heartbroken as she thought Hyeon Yu purposely pretended that he doesn’t know her… she thought Hyeon Yu felt that she is embarrassing him now that he knew he’s the president’s son… so she decided to forget and let go Hyeon Yu (as if she can)… anyway she went back to Dreaming Forest and Qiang Mi’s mum, seeing Yun Soo a little different asked Yun Soo whether something was wrong and then Yun Soo confided in Qiang Mi’s mum about what happened in Seoul…about how she saw Chang Ho and that he didn’t want to admit that he knows her… Yun Soo then told Qiang Mi’s mum that she was over him but Qiang Mi’s mum knew better that Yun Soo was hiding her feelings… Yun Soo is actually really sad… Qiang Mi’s mum also wouldn’t believe that Chang Ho is such a cruel guy so she called her daughter, Qiang Mi and told her to investigate what happened to Chang Ho…
So Qiang Mi managed to dig out from Manager Pu that Hyeon Yu or Chang Ho had lost his memory of what happened that whole year…
After knowing this, Yun Soo decided to go back to Seoul, and maybe find back her “Chang Ho” in Hyeon Yu…She felt that Chang Ho had sacrificed a lot for her and that it’s time for her to sacrifice for him instead…
So off she went to Seoul, leaving her beloved Dreaming Forest behind, under the care of Qiang Mi’s mum…

Ok I guess that’s part 3… you want more, wait for part 4… haha
If you are fed up with my long long story…I’m really sorry… can’t help it… I’m like a grandma when writing…
Take care people!!!

Love ya…if anyone actually reads!!! Haha

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Can't believe that for so long, i actually didn't include my biodata in my blog...
so i guess this is it...


Full Name: Chan Mun Yi
English Name (given by dad): Tammy
Date of Birth: 11 August 1987
Place of Birth: Hospital Fatimah, Ipoh, Perak
Hobbies: TV, Music, Online, Sleep, Blog, Decorating my diary
Dreams: To be successful in everything I do... to be a successful Tv producer and maybe a DJ and work with celebrities

My Favourite...
Food--> Momma's cooking, Western food, Pizza
Drinks --> Green Tea, Milo Ice, Neslo Ice, Pepsi, Iced Lemon Tea
Fruit --> All except pineapple
Color --> Pink, White, Maroon, Red, sea blue or sea green...which ever is right
Actor --> Fir the time being is Ji Sung (No.1), Rupert Grint, Johny Depp, Christian Bale, Dan Cortese
Actress --> Eugene Kim, Sandra Bullock, Eva Longoria, AManda Bynes,
TV Hosts --> Ryan Seacrest, Marion Caunter, Jason Lo, Phat Fabes
MOvies --> Usually comedies, Harry Potter...
DJs --> Serena C, Jason Lo, Phatty Fabes
Singer/Bands --> Spice Girls....Britney, Black Eyed Peas
Music/Songs --> Give my love (Korean), My Dream, Click 5, Simple Plan, Michelle Branch, Jason Lo, dpends on my mood actually... sometimes i like fast tracks and sometimes i prefer slow music...
American Idol --> Katharine McPhee
Place for vacation --> Anywhere near the beach

hope you guys get to know me a little better... i'm now working on the third part of the Save Your Last Dance for Me synopsis...will be posting it out soon... anyway...if you're wondering why haven't i completed my National Service Experience stories...well actually i've already completed them but i am just lazie to post them... i shalle post the rest of the story one day and include some pics too ok...?? take carez people!!!

Love ya!!!
~Tammy~
Muax!!

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Yes!!!!!!!!! I’m back with the second installment for the “Save Your Last Dance For Me” drama synopsis. Hmmm ……well if you miss out the first part all you have to do is to read my previous blog… As I was saying previously…both of them were sacrificing for one another behind one another…Chang Ho helped Yun Soo get the Doctor Shen’s (Yun Soo’s crush) attention…he also bought tickets to a play, which he knew Yun Soo wanted to go instead of a photography book which he wanted… (though at last he didn’t get to go with her as the doc has already invited her out…what a waste)…

it was when Yun Soo went out with the Doctor that Chang Ho realized that he actually liked Yun Soo (I guess, both of them had fell for one another ages ago but are just unaware of it) … but he also realized that he cannot fall in love with her as he had no idea who he was… I mean I’m sure you guys understand how he felt right… he has no memory of what he did last time… he could be married or he could have been a murderer… If he actually remembers his past…he will have to go back to where he belonged and Yun Soo will be left alone, right?? Because of this, he had to keep his love for Yun Soo to himself…
As for Yun Soo… during the date with the Doctor, she realized that the person she really enjoys hanging out with is Chang Ho (Hyeon Yu)…
The day after the date, Yun Soo went out to buy vegetables in town (and also the photography book) without realizing that the car engine is not functioning well (her father forgot to tell her)… later…it rained and the engine failed…She was stuck in town and lucky for her, Doctor Shen passed by and send her… But the worried Chang Ho, who had no idea that Yun Soo was already in Doctor Shen’s car and is on the way home, cycled all the way to town under the rain to search for Yun Soo… He found her car but couldn’t find her…(obviously right) anywayz… Yun Soo reached home and learnt that Chang Ho had went out to search for her…GREAT!! She was so worried that she insisted that she want to go out and search for him, though it was still raining heavily… now Doctor Shen realized that Yun Soo loves Chang Ho…both of them cared for one another so badly…

Finally they found Chang Ho hurt… his bicycle broke down… he was actually really glad to see Yun Soo, but when he saw Doctor Shen with her… he sort of got a little jealous and angry and he pushed Yun Soo away when she tried to help him up …besides that…he also scolded her just to pissed her off (he said that she’s such a busy body..and that he regretted going out to look for her…bla bla…) … I guess he also wanted to make Yun Soo hate him… so that she won’t care for him so much and then he can slowly get over his love for her… sigh….pity pity… he walked all the way home under the heavy rain as he wouldn’t board Doctor Shen’s car…

The next day… Yun Soo was still really mad and sad that Chang Ho scolded her … but then Chang Ho fell sick and Yun Soo was really upset and worried about him…she took care of him all night… when Chang Ho woke up, once again he acted cold towards Yun Soo… and Yun Soo asked him why he is acting this way… she said that she knows all the things that he had done for her behind her… All this while she feels that she is very lucky to have him by her side but why is he acting like this towards her… She then confessed that she is an idiot to fall for a guy like him… to which Chang Ho replied saying that she doesn’t understand how hard it is for him to hide and hold back his love for her…he told her that he is a person who have no right to love, or to be jealous or what-so-ever because he doesn’t even know who he is and what he does … if he actually remembers his past… he might leave her and hurt her… Yun Soo then said that she doesn’t care because she believes that a person won’t change much… even though he lost his memory… he is still who he is before, but just without memory… she said that as Chang Ho or the other person that he is… he still have human feelings… and that’s what she love about Chang Ho… then both of them hugged and this was seen by Yun Soo’s father, who is not really happy when he saw them together… he began to worry about his daughter… I mean, obviously he’s worried about Chang Ho’s past – whether he’s married or engaged or whatever…

Another important part of the story, which I forgot, is that the Global Group (Hyeon Yu/Chang Ho’s father’s company) wanted to buy over the land in which Dreaming Forest is on for developmental purposes… Yun Soo of course is not selling no matter what as she had promised her mum that she will keep that pension… this acquisition project is in charged by Zheng Tai Min, Hyeon Yu’s teacher whom he treated like a brother… Tai Min is the antagonist in the show…but I actually kinda pity him sometimes… anywayz…Tai Min is a very ‘loyal’ assistant of Hyeon Yu’s father and is plotting to take over the company (for a reason..i shall tell you later)… so Hyeon Yu’s death is like a blessing from God as after Hyeon Yu died… Mr. Kang (Hyeon Yu’s father) gave Tai Min almost full authority to run the company…

Ok and now back to Yun Soo and Chang Ho (Hyeon Yu)… Chang Ho made a letterbox in order for both of them to exchange their love letters… but later Yun Soo’s father confronted Chang Ho about his qualms and asked Chang Ho to leave his daughter for her good…Yun Soo’s father found Chang Ho a job in a farm and hope that Chang Ho would work there and forget about Yun Soo and of course, let Yun Soo forget him as well… After some consideration Chang Ho decided that he should leave Yun Soo as he love her and he really don’t want to hurt her… so he told her that he wanted to learn more new things and work and stay in a farm… also he told Yun Soo that he is sick of her bossing him around and treating him like a kid… well obviously Yun Soo won’t believe such crap… I mean one minute he told her he love her and another he told her that he’s bored of her …come on!! But Chang Ho was so determined that Yun Soo finally believed him… so he packed and left the next day leaving Yun Soo crying in the room…

Anywayz while packing the day before, Chang Ho left his stack of love letters that Yun Soo gave him last time that he intended to bring along with him… so when he reached the station and wanted to read through those letters… he realized that he had left them in the pension… so he’s in a dilemma whether or not to go back to the pension to get the letters…

Yun Soo on the other hand was packing the room and she found that stack of love letters… she was really upset as she thought that Chang Ho is really that cruel to her… but she didn’t have much time to ponder upon that as her house was visited by two gangsters who were sent by Zheng Tai Min to force Yun Soo’s father to sign the agreement to sell the “Dreaming Forest” land to them (Global Group) for development purposes…
Yun Soo as I mentioned earlier was a really stubborn girl and she insists that she won’t sell…so the two guys of course mess up her house … she wanted to call the cops but was blocked by one of them… so she fought with them… I must say I really like to see her fight (she kind of like to fight in the show…not kung fu or any sort of martial arts though…it’s like those pushing and hitting people with stuffs kinda fights haha... it’s really hilarious watching her fight)… I mean though she fought back…obviously she can’t out-strength those to bullies right?? One of the gangsters pushed her father so hard that he was hurt… I mean think of his age… he really can’t take such impact… then one of the stupid gangsters slap Yun Soo continuously … and YES!!!!!!! Chang Ho to the rescue!! I love to see him fight as well haha…I mean it’s not martial arts but Ji Sung (the actor who plays Chang Ho/Hyeon Yu) can really act fighting scenes… he make those fighting scenes look surreal…it’s exactly how someone would fight in real life… unlike those Jacky Chan’s flick ...all rubbish… I mean cool to watch Jacky Chan fight but no one actually fights like that in real life right? You guys should really check out how Ji Sung fights haha… anywayz back to the show…Chang Ho of course managed to fight off those two fellas… though he was hurt… Yun Soo cried (maybe because of her father, her injuries which hurt and also that Chang Ho was back) and they hugged…awww……

Ok part 2 done…
I shall continue with part 3 later ok…I hope you guys are excited….hehe… there are more twists and turns in the stories later so don’t you stop reading … maybe I’ll briefly tell you now about what is about to happen next ok? Just to get you hooked a little…haha
- Well Chang Ho regained his memory and left…
- Yun Soo had no idea where he is…
- Yun Soo found him somewhere but Chang Ho/Hyeon Yu hated her after that
- Yun Soo and Hyeon Yu get back together even though Hyeon Yu still doesn’t know that Yun Soo was the one who took care of him…
- Still a lot of happenings but no time to write…so I guess that’s it for now
I have to go cuz I wanna watch another exciting episode of ..yea you’ve guess it… “SAVE YOUR LAST DANCE FOR ME” or “Majimak Chumeun Nawa Hamkke” in Korean…

TAKE CARE PEOPLE!!!
Love Ya!!
Don’t Worry, Be HAPPY !!! =)

~LoVe TaMmY~
p/s: for those who find my blog darn boring... i'm really really sorry... take care though!!

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hmm....nothing much to do these days...getting lazier + fatter (GREAT!!!) sigh...

sis is at her friend's birthday party..my best friends are busy with their own stuff (their exams are around the corner)..i'm busy with nothing(my exams are over and now i just have to worry abt the results..sigh)...all i can do is go online and the phone bills keep increasing and mummy will of course...erm...get angry when the bill arrive and i'll get some scoldings...that's life...haha..i mean i am darn lazy to work..that's probably why dad is not happy with me...hmm..actually that is in fact why he's not happy...he always wants us to get work experience..which yea i guess it's good to get some working experience..the thing is...it's holiday and everyone is enjoyin..everyone gets to go back to their hometown and if i work, i'll have to stay in KL, stuck in my dad's apartment n work..It'll be even more boring...ARGH...and i won't get to watch my "Save Your Last Dance for Me" CDs as well...hmm...so my decision to not work during the hols..is CORRECT!! hahaa...

anywayz, i guess u guys have heard or rather read a lot about me being addicted to the Korean Drama "Save Your Last Dance for ME"..(i'm still watching it..hehe).. well i guess maybe i should share its synopsis with you guys...

Let's see...Kang Hyeon Yu (played by the hot Ji Sung) is a rich boy who likes photography but of course his father, wasn't too pleased with his son's field of study. (some parents just don't get it) anywayz..his father lied to Hyeon Yu that he's very ill in order to get his son, who’s studying in America to go back to Korea to run the Company – Global Group (flooring, tiles and wall business)...Hyeon Yu then went back to Korea and learn the truth about his father's lies...
and when Hyeon Yu found out that his father had selected him as the 'leader' of the company's new project..Hyeon Yu was really angry...and to top that up..his father wanted him to marry his childhood ‘girlfriend’, Yun Xiu Zhen just because the girl's father is rich and can help their business growth...Hyeon Yu isn't really sure whether he liked that girl or not...i mean..Hyeon Yu cared a lot abt Xiu Zhen in a way but then that is not love....it's more like a brother sister relationship between them...but Hyeon Yu who had never, i think, be with any other girl before thought that Xiu Zhen may be the one but still he doesn't want to marry her before he is sure that fate wants them to be together....Xiu Zhen of course is desperate for Hyeon Yu and is willing to wait for him (she has waited for 10years since they were 15)
anywayz when Hyeon Yu told Xiu Zhen parents (in front of his own parents, thus embarrassing them) that he is not ready to marry their daughter and that he wanted to continue studying photography...he pissed his father so much that his father throw Hyeon Yu’s cameras and tore all his pictures ..resulting Hyeon Yu to run away from home....

well that's the beginning of Hyeon Yu’s life...on the other part of the show involves Chi Yun Soo (Eugene) ..she is a sweet yet quite stubborn and tough girl who loves her father very much..both of them runs a small and nice pension called "Dream Forest" (i really like that pension...) anywayz life is good for them except that they owe people money because of Yun Soo's fathers medical fees...
Watching the part showing Yun Soo’s life is very fun and relaxing…I love to see her and her father…their relationship are really close and it’s just so nice to watch both of them… Also, Yun Soo is into his father’s doctor called Doctor Shen…and all this while she was struggling to express her ‘love’ to him…

anywayz back to Hyeon Yu...he ran away from home and was rob by a thief...when Hyeon Yu fought back, the thief accidentally hurt him with a knife and pushed Hyeon Yu off the cliff....feeling too scared, the thief panicked and quickly drove Hyeon Yu's car away and met with an accident...the thief was burnt to death during that accident, with all Hyeon Yu's documents with him, causing everyone (Hyeon Yu's family) to believe that the deceased is Hyeon Yu..

Obviously Hyeon Yu is not dead right..haha..somehow he managed to climb up the cliff and when Yun Soo was driving his dad to the hospital to collect medicine...she bumped into Hyeon Yu and thought she was the one who knocked down Hyeon Yu, causing his injuries...she and her dad rushed Hyeon Yu to the hospital and Hyeon Yu was saved ..but he lost his memory..great!! Because the hospital failed to identify Hyeon Yu's identity and background info, Yun Soo and her dad are in charged of him because they were the ones who sent him to the hospital..Yun Soo was reluctant at first but seeing the pathetic look on Hyeon Yu's face changed her mind...though she still isn't fond of him...
one year has past...and Hyeon Yu is named Chang Ho (memory in Korean) his full name is Wu Chang Ho (or in English no memory) .. they slowly fell in love with each other of course...each of them sacrificing for one another...
i guess i shall continue the story later...have to go ...been hogging the comp since 4eva...
but one thing is for sure..the drama starts here....
take carez ppl!!

~love Tammy~

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Dated - 27-02-06

Sigh...Ok how r u ppl doin?? Well i'm in da middle of my semester break, havin a good time but i hv only a week left be4 i go back to the 'FUN' college life..well yea i mean studyin in college has its ups n downs like studying in any other places...i enjoy parts of it n despise parts of it haha...well life have to go on rite?? i just pray tat there won't be as many HARD assignments like last semester...i had a really hard time last semester crying over my piling assignments..sigh...nevertheless i completed them though not with flying colors.. my friends n i pulled it thru ...

sometimes i really wonder whether this is the right thing for me ...i mean it's pretty hard out
ther..u need to be really damn good to be in this broadcast industry n i dunno whether i hv the material for this or not... but i'm really not regretting..i really enjoy wat i'm doing right now...just tat i sumtimes feel tat i'm not good enuff...n if i'm not good enuff i can't continue to do wat i love rite?? hmm....

anyway next week is the beginning of a new semester, a brand new challenge...lookin forward to learning new stuff but not lookin forward to leave home...how i wish my mum moves to KL with me..i mean i'm the 'MUMMY GIRL' n i'm kinda proud of it haha...i'm really lazy n messy n of course i wish my mum would be ther to ..u know...help out..haha...besides when i'm down, usually becuz of assignments, i will at least hv my whole family to confide in..
my sis will be joining me in college real soon... sigh sigh sigh... i'm not sure whether it's good or bad...i mean...we r from 2 completely different worlds..meaning we hv completely n i mean COMPLETELY different personalities...i can't stand her n she can't stand me...we r close at times but usually we just can't get along...well maybe it's becuz i'm too talkative or maybe it's becuz she's too QUIET!! i think she's too quiet..haha..she says that i'm too noisy n it irritates her alot...to me it's like...wat is wrong wit her..it seems like everythin i said is just wrong...i can't even ask questions sumtimes...like i missed a few episodes on 'Lost' n i just ask her wat's happening and there she goes...starts givin me tat expression...telling me tat i'm very irritating.... so u mean i hv to shut up 24-7 n never open my mouth?? wat d heck!! just bcuz she shuts her mouth always (unless if the topic is on sports), doesnt mean tat i hv to follow suit rite?? See the prob with her i think is that she's sumtimes really really serious abt stuff..Like sumtimes i move my body n dance along to the music (even in public sometimes) n she thinks that i'm embarrasing her.. for me is like, no one cares..besides i wasn't really dancing tat obviously..sumtimes i can't even sing along to the song in public when she's around....when she's serious..things go wrong cuz she'll get on my NERVES (or maybe in her case..the other way around).... The times we get along r usually when she's "drunk" (as in crazy) and that is when she's in a good mood n when her "HAPPY NERVES" are functioning... but hell, maybe it's my prob...she clicks wit my bro...(their usual chat topic would be ---> yea, sports n school; n also making fun of each other, i do join in as well hehe...)

Seriously ..i mean..if u like her type..u r definitely gonna hate mine...haha....here's y..
My Sis L.O.V.E.S football, sports, anything tat has NOTHING to do with girlish girlish stuff (tat is no skirts)..she doesn't like to shop for Chinese New Year clothes cuz my mum force her to buy sumthing more Feminine..oh Boy..u sud hv seen tat sulky look on her face..i was so pissed when i saw her tat way...i mean come on it's Chinese New YEar For God sake..can't u be happier??? She was all frowns n mum has to bear with tat....as for me ..i'm d opposite la..i hv nothing against sports, it's just that i'm not into it...i understand tat a lot of ppl lurves it n some r CRAZEE abt it...but i just can't get myself into likin it...n maybe tat's d prob wit me..with guys i really hv no 'conversation currency'..actually it would be great if i'm involved with sports..haha..then i wouldn't be tat plump...haha...anywayz i love girlish girlish stuff unlike me sis haha, i mean not all d girly stuff but a lot of it i guess ..i LOVE anythin tat has to do with pink, pink n pink n obviously she hates it.. i love shopping for new clothes or just anything my mum buys i usually like..(cuz my mum n i have almost d same tastes..n f.y.i. my mum n i hv good tastes ok...) ...
My sis emphasizes on neatness n i don't hehe...(i know, i know... my bad)... so she's like the OLDER sis always nagging me on cleanliness even though i came out first 11 months earlier..well to be honest i admit that i sud be a bit more tidy though hehe...
anyways...she's really matured n independant compared to me..she never tells my parents her stuff, she solves her own probs ...i solve my own probs too but tat's like after confiding in everyone abt it...she's the type tat practice the saying 'Action speaks louder than words',..i really HATE to say this but i ..erm.. am kinda the opposite most of the time..(i talk more than i do...hehhe...but it doesn't mean tat i dun do the things tat i said i would) well...she's really good in mechanical n electronical stuff (yes she's a gurl n she fix TV n stuff..oh my GOD!!..i wish i can do that ..) but i guess i'm good at ..ermm...talking..haha...or watching TV or gossiping on celebrities..(those r talent too...hehe) but i guess the only thing tat i feel proud of myself for is that when i love something...I WILL DO MY BEST in it..I WILL GIVE IT ALL!..like i love my field of study n i really would wanna do well...other than that..i feel tat i lose out in everything compared to my sis...the ppl i like always likes her more..they r always telling me how cool my sis is n all...but no one has ever said tat abt me..never!! i think everyone thinks i'm too noisy n irritating... i guess maybe i am...though i never admitted it ever in front of anyone....i think the only thing we share some similarity is in the type of songs n movies n TV shows ...n even tat v sometimes dun hv the same opinions.. like we also argue when American Idol is on..like who is better ... (i'm 'ALwAYS' right..hehe..) ..like she thinks Carrie Underwood is good???? oh PLE-ASE!! no offense to all Carrie's fans out ther but she's really quite ...normal..BO BICE is Like way better...ooo.. n i like Jesse McCartney (yea i know it's lame n pretty childish...he's not vocally strong i know but i just like his songs yea..) but she totally hates him..i LOVE RUPERT GRINT and she hates him...n she prefers Hermoine...hmmm...

although i feel tat i lose out ALOT compared to my sis, i always feel that i'm really really lucky...i'm lucky tat i hv a bunch of best friends who understands me...maybe they think i crap alot too..but at least they accept me for d way i am...i am grateful tat i hv supportive parents as well...my mum who tolerated my laziness all these years..dad who is just full of good advises..(though not all agreeable..hehe) i'm just really thankful to GOD who blessed me with everything..

honestly i do hate myself sumtimes...i always wonder y i always say the wrong things at the wrong time n embarassed myself or y sometimes i dun know wat to say or y sumtimes my tongue is tied and blurt out all the wrong English (especially when talking to some really 'influential' ppl or the ppl i admire)...i wonder y i like to criticize d celebrities that i dislike (lindsay lohan, a lot more but can't think of any at d moment....) also,..y do i get jealous so easily?? hmm...i mean there r 2 types of jealousy in my dictionary...the first one is tat u r jealous but u just LOVE the person that u r jealous of (in other words...u admire the person; EXAMPLES: Marion Caunter, Huey Ning, Britney, ....), the other type is PURE ENVY ..u just despise tat person becuz they r better than u n their attitude just gets on your NERVES!!! Luckily i usually feel the first type of jealousy rather than the 2nd type...i am only really jealous of one person in my life n tat is "A SECRET' hehe..but now i dun feel tat way so much anymore....though yes i still feel it sumtimes (wat am i talkin abt??)
but then.. i feel really blessed tat i'm still myself though, yes i do need to change a lil...haha...i'll change really if Rupert Grint wants me too...=)
i feel tat God's every decision for me is always a blessing in disguise... i mean...for example, He made me go for National Service which i obviously HATED ..but in the end...it was not tat bad..in fact it was quite a great experience for me...n i met a few REALL REALLY GREAT FRIENDS there...like Ah Ching n Huey Ning...whom i learnt so much from.....my sis ..is not so lucky in this case haha...no matter how hard she tried..she still isn't selected for National Service...i mean..it's really hilarious....i told ya we're different...she almost cried when she found out that she wasn't selected for National Service n i on the other hand CRIED NON-STOP when i found out tat i had to go for it...(i mean after i attended it was a different story)...
So at the end of everyday...no matter how badly it went..I still thank GOD for every thing!! thanks!!! muaxxx!!

Yea i guess i better stop here cuz i know i crap too much...well i guess it's becuz of the time i hv ..i really hv nothing much to do...yea i know i sud read papers n all haha..but that's boring..wat's better than doing wat i do best rite?? (crap..hehe) anywayz...it's always great to write n express how u feel, even though it's a bit too long (it's TOO LONG i know.. actually i still wanna comment on Lindsay Lohan but...i better stop here..haha) ...it's one of my fave things to do...yea i mean i dun blog often though rite haha...but i do hv a personal diary which i write in ...all my personal stuff...all my secrets...hmmm.....Well i'm out...Oh...n check out American Idol 5..Katharine, Ace, n Chris RoCKS!!! If u happen to be in America ..help me support them yea..hehe...of course MY RYAN SEACREST is still in..(he's so cute...) so make sure u guys check them all out alrite??!!! YES!!
TaKe CaReZ fOlKs!!

~Tammy the "Magnificent" =) ~

With Lots of Love & Hugs & Kisses & Chris Richardson's scent from BabyT ;

Ji Sung and Eugene



While i'm writing this my sis is actually angry at me for hogging the computer ...enjoy these pics though...

With Lots of Love & Hugs & Kisses & Chris Richardson's scent from BabyT ;

Dated 02-05-06 (very current..last week)

OH...finally i'm home for the 3rd semester break...can't believe it that a year had just gone by like that..in a blink of the eye!!! i mean at the end of may i'll be starting me 2nd year in college...YEAH i know i know..i'm OLD!! ARGH..this issue is dawning on me like 4eva...time really do pass by very very fast...hmm....maybe i'm enjoyin it that's why time just flies pass me haha...but i do have my sad moments in college...long story if i were to talk about it....hmm.....i mean..it's really stressful hanging out with the people i am with now...i feel that a few of them isn't really fond of me..the thing is maybe i'm not really fond of them either...so we're even..but then it's really sad that when i'm in KL..there's no one that i could share my ups and down with...mum's in ipoh n my sis n bro as well...all my bestest friends are in ipoh....i mean...who can i turn to and confide in?? hmm... a few weeks back was the hardest that i had to go thru...i've never felt that i have no friends before and last few weeks...i felt that...i felt how it's like having no friends to confide in...however i did manage to sms some of my old friends....HUEY NING (thanks for making me feel so much better) and of course JU IMM and JEE YIN (whom i talk to yesterday) ...i mean i'm still grateful that at the end of the day...i still have friends and family that i can turn too..

anywayz it's all over...it's all in the pass...exams as well..i dun think i did well...i didn't study hard i know..i mean i watched all my TV programs during exams...i know i shouldn't but i just can't help it...i watched American IDol and Survivor on the night before the exams and ...as i should have known..did really really badly for the paper i took the next day...i lost 24 marks just like tat because i totally skipped studying one tiny little part of the notes...i never thought that that part would actually come out...but to be fair to myself..(ahem..yea rite) i did skip desperate housewife and charmed and 8 simple rules...sigh..anywayz like i said...i can't change anything..hopefully the teacher would give me marks for the CRAP i wrote on the answer sheet...i had to dig deep inside my brains in order to find crap to write on the answer sheet...it wasn't easy...sigh...the last half an hour was like hell...my head was spinning and my brains cannot really function well...sigh...but then at least i manage to come out with something ....KUDOS!!! but still GOD plz plz help me...i need As for both subjects to maintain my full scholarship ..Plz...hehehehehe....=)

Ok...back to ENTERTAINMENT business...i'm back in IPoh and my mum bought me the Korean Drama "Save Your Last DAnce FOr Me" VCDs...(THANKS SO MUCH MUMMY!!!!..LUV YA!!) and i am so stuck and addicted to it....i mean..i'm SO SOSO in LOVE with both the leads..--> Eugene Kim Yoo-Jin and Ji Sung...Eugene is like the prettiest and sweetest girl i've ever seen...and she can really act...and Ji Sung...very good looking ...sigh...i'm so IN LOVE!!! i've been watching the show 24-7 and i know my siblings are like sick of me..they don't get why i'm so into the whole korean drama thingy...i guess when you're hooked only will u understand how badly you would want to hang out in front of the TV everyday watching it...the story is great and unlike all KOrean Dramas, this one has a HAPPY ending...that's y i LIKE..i hate korean dramas that have sad endings....i mean it's such a romantic love story...and it's really really relaxing to just sink urself into a non-reality world for a change...i mean obviously we know that all these nice little fairy tales won;t happen in real life but heck...just watch the drama and lie to yourself or rather..console yourself tat all these 'ridiculous' love stories might happen to you one day...haha..i mean in reality we know that there's NO SUCH THING AS THE PERFECT GUY but in TV...they are everywhere..hahaha..and yes ..by watching we can just daydream (or lie to ourselves) that one day...who knows......that perfect guy in Save THe LAst Dance for Me or in fact in any other movie/drama will POP out...=) like they say "DARE TO DREAM"
anywayz...to get full effect (as in to feel extremely comfortable while watching the drama), get ur bolster so tat u have something to hug and get a drink...I guarantee that u'll have a wonderful time...('',)...and if you have never heard of this drama be4...no worries...i'm gonna tell you guys more later... in my next blog..if i have the mood or time...

as for now i will sign off...my sis is bugging me that it's her turn to use the computer and of course i am now off to finish another episode of my "save Your last dance for me" or rather 2 episodes...so take carez folks!!! and do support 'Save Your Last Dance for me'..try gettin it in stores..or u can borrow mine (if you actually know where i stay haha)....

MUAX PPL, LURVE
~ TAMMY~

With Lots of Love & Hugs & Kisses & Chris Richardson's scent from BabyT ;

Dated 07-04-2006

I can't believe it!! i actually bumped into Serena C and Rudy from Hitz.fm. oh my GOd!! i was so so HAPPIE and very very nervous...they were eating in Grill's Bar at KLCC..and when i saw them, i was like ...OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!..i hesitated to ask for their autographs...i wanted to, but afraid to...luckily my friends were like, keep pushing me to go.. they keep telling me that i will regret it if i don't go .. and later i was convinced by them that i should go ask them...we went all the way to the ground floor and then we go all the way up again..my God..i really was scared...when i met them i was like ...i dunno wat to say...i end up screwing up again ..sigh..i dun even know what i said to them and wat they said to me..i din even say thank u when Serena C said that i hv a nice name..sigh...and when Rudy said "thank u for coming up to say hi to us", i was like "YOU"RE WELCOME!!" what the *beep* did i say that for?? sigh..i should hav said "thank u for making time for me" or somethin...sigh...sigh embarassing... then Serena C was abt to ask me sumthing and i ...(so freaking stupid) cut her off by askin Rudy's autograph...Y?? Y?? Y??...sigh..i didn't know tat serena C was gonna ask me sumthin,..............i sudn't hv ask Rudy so soon...... Serena C is darn pretty ..prettier in person..... sigh..how i wish i could be like her one day...today (or rather yesterday cuz it's already past 12) is the BEST day of my life..well if you exclude the fact that i din do very well in my assessment..sigh..let's not go there first haha..anywayz yes...Serena C, this is my msg to u.."JUST WANNA LET U KNOW THAT UR SO HOT AND SO COOL!! THANX SO MUCH FOR THE AUTOGRAPH..I APPRECIATE IT ALOT!! I REALLY HOPE TO BE LIKE U SOMEDAY!! LOVE YA!! AND U R SO PRETTY!! I'M SO SO GLAD TO GET TO SEE YOU!!!!!!!!" i didn;t get to tell u just now cuz i was too freaking scared n my nerves just got over me.. i was lost for the appropriate words....sigh..anywayz Rudy was really fun as well...haha..i am so so HAPPIE!!

Hmm...movin on to my assessment paper..yes yes finally the moment of truth..haha..well i got 66 which is alright but the thing is...hmm...i wasn't too please wit d answer for d first question... translate don't take things for granted to BM...there are two meanings according to the dict..one means to not take advantage of something, which is the common answer i guess, though i never really heard anyone used it tat way becuz whenever i use the phrase "don't take things for granted" i use it to mean don't take something unseriously or something, for example: Don't take your health for granted...so for me is like, how i can get 0 marks out of 5 if i translate the meaning as Jangan memandang ringan terhdp sesuatu perkara???? at least 1 mark will do..haha..but then i guess it's not the marks...it's knowing that i'm right...i really dun wanna embarass myself d next time i use this phrase, i mean if it's wrong...but i asked my dad and he said it should be right...besides when i asked my teacher abt it, she said "We decided not to accept this answer" ..WHAT??? Erm..excuse me... if it's correct..how can u decide to not accept?? it's like u can't DENY the TRUTH!! what's correct is correct n what's wrong is wrong (i mean at least in languages it is) besides, it's stated in the dict...there's no way "YOU" can decide..Well ya i guess there's a way cuz she's d teacher...hmmm...ya ya...whateva she says IS RIGHT! i have nothing against her ..seriously..she's so sweet n nice, it's just that, i really expect a better explanation from her...well, i'm still in a dilemma whether i should go up to her again and make my point clear..sigh sigh..

And life isn't any easier with assignments cropping up..one down, another one to go..the thing about assignments is, it's not that u r lazy to do it, or that u dun hv enough time, it is when u dun freaking get the question that pisses u off so bad...u kinda worry whether the 1000 over words long essay is correct or not.. i mean it would suck so bad to hv completed d whole thingy just to know that u failed or get LOW LOW marks just bcuz u get the question wrong..sigh..and when u dun understand the question, your brain system will automatically becomes dysfunctional... we get lazier and lazier and then we tend to sleep alot and eat alot and then.."cheng, cheng, cheng* become as fat as ME!! lecturers aren't helping as well, i mean, lecturers are so bored that d only way to entertain themselves is by torturing students...serious..they hv so much fun reading our work...they purposely set difficult question to test our BRAINS and of course to have a good laugh... i shall remember all your "GOOD" deeds my dear lecturers!!
These few days were really sad for me...well my insecurity probs are beginning to take over me again..i get too sensitive about what others have to say about me...i dun feel good about myself..i feel that i'm too fat...useless and all...i'm just so low these days..but today was really great and i really hope that all my days will continue to be as smooth n great..hmmm...or even better haha..getting a lil greedy... but it's alwayz great to be back home in ipoh cuz there's where my family is, my mum and my sis n my bro(who's pretty snappy these days..no idea y..muz b a break-up or sumthing...haha..only kidding..exams stress) ..i mean there's no one better to confide in than ur family members..they can really boost u up a lil..though sometimes they don't really help much but then i think it's great just to hv them around..haha...it's weird cuz last time when u get to be with them everyday, u really think that they're freaking annoying, but when u r away all the time,..i know, this is cliche, i mean, everyone knows that u will treasure a person more when u dun get to see them often...haha...but at the end of each day, it's God that u hv to thank..i mean, when i reflect on the day every night..i still feel grateful that God has provided me with my family and my closest friends..bcuz no matter what happened or how bad my day was, i know that i still hv ppl behind me...and it's really nice to know that...SO THANK U GOD!!!!!!!!!

Ooookie!!!!!!!!...time for entertainment...hehehehehehehehehehehehehe............American IDol.......hmm......KATHARINE ROCKS!!!! SHe;s so darn good..she;s pretty and she can really really sings....and it's great to know that Marion loves her too!!! Katharine shall stay forever!!! Ace too...haha...both of them should date (i think i mention this be4 in my previous blog, i'm gonna do this again) ..they look great together..they hv the same charming smile...same smouldering looks on their face at the end of each song.......they ARE PERFECT TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!! CUPID Where R U?????????????????? ok ok back to reality...Chris was great as well...d thing with this season is..i like all of them, except PAris..i know she can sing ..but forgive me for finding her irritating from the beginning til now...can't help it...sigh....
Ice Age 2 --> Hillarious and fun to watch...i mean, it's a relaxing movie, if u just wan to hv a great time and a good laugh then go for it...if u want something action-packed....hehee...watch sumthin else instead ...V for Vendeta maybe (i have yet to watch it though) i would really wanna watch "Yours, Mine and Ours" or rather "Mine, YOurs and OUrs" which ever is right, i wanna watch that.. i know i know, i only go for all these simple comedies or chick flicks...date me and u'll be stuck watching these kinda movies..haha..only kidding...i watch action movies as well, just not too keen abt it...BUT I WILL NEVER EVER WATCH SCARY MOVIES that are Really really scary...anywayz i like movies that makes me laugh and happy at the end of the day... but for TV programmes, i like all sorts, comedies, reality shows, dramas.....but i;m really getting sick of TVB dramas..too predictable and boring...Korean dramas are still ok especially "Save your last dance for me"..my current MOST FAVE Korean Drama, beating "Full house" in 2nd place and "Autumn in My HEart" in 3rd (Wah..Oscars)...My fave type of programmes are of course all those American reality shows n dramas... one might argue that reality shows are fake..bla bla...true but then it's cheap to produce and it's making CASH!!! so who cares haha...and if u dun like it.. just dun watch it...there are MILLIONS or BILLIONS out there who r still CRAZIE over reality shows...besides, i feel that reality shows are avenues for ppl to realize their dreams or experience something extraordinary...who gets to work with Trump if there's no 'The Apprentice'; who can stand a chance of winning a recording contract if there's no 'American Idol'; who gets a makeover if there's no 'Extreme Makeover'; and which guy would get their life transform if d Fab 5 from QUeer Eye for the Straight Guy isn't there to lend a hand? i know u might not win d competition but just getting on TV can earn u FREE publicity... u might not win American Idol but hell...u can still get a recording contract..LOOK at William Hung..he can't even sing...haha...look at Colby Donaldson (he's damn hot by the way)...he didn't win any seasons of Survivor, he was in the Australian OUtback n Survivor all-stars and lost twice...but...HE's now an actor...i mean part-time ...he gets small roles once in a while in comedies haha....but who cares, he gets $$$, so let's just say REALITY SHOWS still RULZ for now k...haha.. i win! nah..u can alwayz argue back ur point..

and why the hell is Ryan Seacrest dating Teri Hatcher.. first she's like 10 years his senior but i guess that's the trend, guys like matured ladies...(an't get it). and then i really like ryan and i am really not fond of Teri...argh!! Cupid u targeted d wrong couple...ur target sud be Ace and Katharine yo!! WAKE UP!! Quick get that arrow out of Ryan's and Teri's butt...
I guess that's all for now...i'm feeling a lil dizzy...guesss i din get enough of sleep..drove all d way from KL to Ipoh and now i'm still on the Internet at 4.30 AM!!!! ARGH! Nevermind, i'm loving it!! haha...Well to anyone who's actually taking the time to read (or just browsing thru) all the way here..thanx for ur support!! haha...i guess no one actually reads this though...well i know God is..so THANK U SO MUCH GOD for ur support!! Muax!!

p/s: Check out Bo Bice's THe real THing, i'm sure many of u know that song..i love it..., i still hv alot of cool songs to recommend haha...save it for later!! take care folks!!!

LOVE,
~Tammy signing out~

With Lots of Love & Hugs & Kisses & Chris Richardson's scent from BabyT ;

Dated 24-3-06

Let me start this blog by saying that the song Shine..by Shannon Noll ROCKS!! I am so in love with it..

Anywayz i'm back in Ipoh.. i mean whenever i blog, that means that i'm at home ...it's alwayz great to be back at home..hmm...i wonder y dad don't want to move the whole family to KL..i mean tat way we can all be together rite?? i dun get it...hmm..but i dun wan to question him either..i mean what's da point..u can never win when u debate with him...he's always the one with da facts that hit u rite in da face.. i dunno... 2 weeks ago was really hard.. dad was like getting a bit on my nerves...he's such a ..i dunno perfect person n it's like u hv to be tat good when u r with him...i know his advice r valuable, useful n bla..bla ..but then there's just times when u really dun agree with him even though u know he's right.. i mean..yes i'm really a kinda spoiled lil kid..and i really dun really do housechores and all.. but then i do do housework when i'm asked to right?...wat happened tat day was...he asked me to help clean up the house so fine..at 9am i woke up (very rare) n great i had to mop d floors everything...NO PROB.. but then he asked me how do i want to mop it..from which part to which part...i'm like...WHAT?? i simply gave him an answer..wat eva tat's on my mind at that time cuz i dun freakin care..i just wan to get d job done and go back to ..erm sleep haha...anywayz..then he's like...y do u wan to mop it from here to ther...bla bla..n i'm like... simply gave him another answer...and i'm screwed cuz i din argue my point as in y i wanted to do it the way i said i do (confusing??..reread a couple of time if u have the time).. i mean, to me it's like JUST MOVE ON WITH DA MOPPING YO! Y ask so many questions ... and then after everything later in d afternoon we had a talk la..(my dad always gives lectures after an incident...) so we tried to discussed wat happened in da morning...dad wanna know y i was so pissed and he wanted to share wit me y he's so pissed..actually i know y he's mad..i did a few things on purpose to piss him haha..BAD BAD...(like purposely leave my bag on d bed when it sud be place back on d floor) but i was overwhelmed with anger at tat moment...anywayz he was mad becuz he thinks that i dun hv initiative (true) and that i hv no planning when i work (True only with some type of work..like housechores) and that i have to be asked to work only then i will work..he said that i'm like a wood..hmmm..well,..to me it's like true i guess parts of it...but not completely...i mean...i do hv planning when doing my assignments n some other stuff..n i do help with housechores like washing the dishes (my niche) and i do hang clothes and all..he said that i'm spoiled by my mum n i said i love being spoiled...i mean..i dun think my mum spoils me too much.. i love my mum tat way.. i mean i know being spoil is not really too bad but ..if u read ANdrew Matthews 'Follow Your Heart', there's a chapter called SPOIL YOURSELF A LITTLE...i mean, tat's y me n my siblings are more attached to my mum, she spoils us a little .... she will do many things to please us..n that's y we want to please her..we would try our best sometimes to make her happy...dad is very...i dunno...i love him too..but in terms of personalities ..we're poles apart(Learned from translation class haha)...dad, i think have got to spoil himself a lil..but the thing is..he enjoys doing really serious stuffs..so d way he spoil himself is also kinda boring la..for example he splurge on books n read all day or work...for me n my mum n my sis n my bro, we would prefer to splurge more on unnecessary stuff...like a vacation, movies...latest stuff...dad's just planning for our future so he doesn't really spend...i mean, he's really responsible and that's cool! and dad's d one that u sud go for advice...i dun agree with his 'PERFECTIONIST TRAIT' but i love some of his advice...
mum n dad is just different..i love them for different reasons..dad is better n more understanding in some ways n mum in some other ways..n tat's y i love them both so much..they're different...but after that morning...i feel a lil awkward when i'm with dad..it's like i have to impress him or something...it's stressful..i hv to becareful with everything i do..sigh..too stressful...but with my mum..i can just be myself...

One thing is over and another crop up..assignments, assignments all bugging me..can't even hv a weekend off...i mean i still hv to do researches when i'm back at home when i actually planned to relax (C i do plan..haha) Group members issues as usual...dun think some of them actually like me as the leader..maybe i'm too pushy or wateva..but i would really appreciate it if they tell me...i mean some of the things they say hv hidden meanings...and i think if they tell me that they dun want me as the leader i won't hv any prob.. i mean i know i'm pretty useless..anywayz i can't make everyone like me right? i know i'm not always right la...i admit that i'm not good at certain things but i guess i'll learn...hopefully i'll learn haha.. but i think my group members are pretty good compared to others..sigh sigh sigh...AM I REALLY TAT BAD??!! Feel like hell....Lately i just hate myself...i mean..i think i'm beginning to act like a bitch..i'm more selfish...y oh y...no idea...i'm not tat nice anymore n i hate it....i dunno..i'm also darn sensitive, in a not so good way....i just dun like myself at all anymore...

anywayz...let's move on to a more airy topic such as AMERICAN IDOL!!! KATHARINE MCPHEE ROCKS!!! SHe's so HOT and SHE CAN REALLY REALLY SING!! Ace is ACE..SO DARN CUTE n Boyband kinda style..i know many thinks he's lame but I LURVE!! Chris still ROCKS as USUAL!! He sud be like making an album or sumthing..he doesnt need this competition...Paris is as ANNOYING AS USUAL...and DAMN..she's good...so there's no way she'll be out any sooner so ..ARGH!!! The others all i like so i'm very undecided on who sud leave but if possible i want d PARIS OUT A.S.A.P even though she can sing...OH AND SEACREST is STILL AS HOT!! What would be so cool is that if ACE DATES KATHARINE!! They're perfect for each other...they could do a duet or sumthin as well...it's gonna be GREAT!!

Now my fave shows are What i like about you..(u really sud check out d hottie --> DAN CORTESE who will be starring in the next season of WHAT I LIKE ABOUT YOU!!.. HE is REally DA HOT MAn!! And in d show he's Valle's hmmm....accidental husband.. or sud i put it this way...they got married accidentally...and fell in love when waiting for their marriage annulment....bla ..bla..just check him out..I LURVE VALLE n they LOOK GREAT TOGETHER!!!!!!! THough only in d show ...), Save the LAst Dance..a lame Korean LOVE STORY but i just love the lead actress, Eugene (she really looks a bit like Katharine, both look really sweet) although d show's lame but sometimes it's just fun to sink yourself into some sort of ridiculous love drama just to get your mind of reality, which really sucks...i mean..i really dun believe that there are such complicated LOVE STORIES in life...i find it really stupid...hmmm...if u happen to experience all this kinda love complications maybe u cud like share them with me... but i really hope tat all these complicated lovey dovey probs dun eva occur in my life..i just want a simple and happy relationship, someone to share my sorrows n happiness..ups n downs..
...THAT'S THAT...ok ok drifting away like my lecturer Miss TANG..and hmm American Idol...i'm always stuck in front of the TV..and it's really scary to some ppl...i'm such a couch potato...

Anywayz maybe i sud end here..............i crap too much...i can continue actually if i want but hehe...let's just keep my thoughts for another day....
~well take carez ppl~

HOPE TO SHINE SOMEDAY!!
~TAMMY OUT~

With Lots of Love & Hugs & Kisses & Chris Richardson's scent from BabyT ;

This song I LOVE!! Hope that u guys like it too...

THe Second Star

Rap:
Ready, Here We Go..Dream your way to the stars...Never stop you and me..Me and you on our way to the top...Spread the wings we can fly to the sky...To the left of the moon there's a star on the right..And I can meet you, I can meet you, I can meet you...

Sing:
The second star to the right..Shines in the night for you...To tell you that the dreams you find..Really can come true...The second star to the right..Shines with the light that's rare...And if it's never ending means...Its light will lead you there...Twinkle, twinkle little star...So I'll know (I will know)..Where you are...Living in the sky above...Lead me to the land I dreamed of...And when our journey is through...Each time we say goodnight..We thank the little star that shines ...Second from the right....

- Jesse McCartney --> The Second Star to the Right -

With Lots of Love & Hugs & Kisses & Chris Richardson's scent from BabyT ;

Dated - 08-02-2006
Finally I’ve got some time off….YEAH!!!
The week before CNY was hectic…exams and all…then the week after was also
filled with exams..ARGH!! EXAMS EXAMS and MORE EXAMS
Exams are driving me nuts…
I mean how can u actually organize exams in a way that they are held after the CNY.
They actually expect us to study during d festive season??
Sigh…I was torn between studying and celebrating…I chose the latter of course…
Anyways it is finally over and now hopefully I can find a job…
Slight chances though… I mean who’s gonna hire someone for less than a month..

Anyways our family was shaken recently by a really sad news..
I was really upset when I heard about it.. though it isn’t much of my business..
One of my family members broke up with her bf…
I mean they were supposed to get married at the end of this year after a 12-year
relationship….
I am really appalled at how bad and heartless guys can be…
How can a relationship of 12 years lose to a relationship made up
of only a few days??? How can u suggest to break up with ur gf of 12 years for
another gurl…(even if she offers u 'something', u can't just change like tat...)
ANSWER ME GUYS!! What THE HELL IS WRONG WITH U PPL!!!
I mean, is it that easy to change….doesn’t 12 years mean anything at all to u…
Do u know how hurtful it is to a girl….
It’s just so sad to just think abt it…
The girl (my family member) used to be a really cheerful gurl and is always happy
and now…. It’s just so different…
I really dunno why she get all this…I really feel sorry for her…
The parents and everyone are just so sad right now……
All because of some irresponsible JERK!! Knowing that they cry just makes me
feel so sad….sigh..
They were like my model couple (I mean my ….and her bf)but now..it’s like ..
I dun even have faith in relatiobships anymore …. But I know it’s unfair to label all guys as bad…
I know that some are really nice but …..seriously…how can one actually change so Fast after 12 years….??? I really wonder…
I’m just hoping tat my ‘…’ will recover soon…
And that her….*beep* ex-bf or wateva will be “CRAWLING BACK TO HER”…

"Everybody knows...that he is such a fool,..to ever let go of u ....
I'm sure he is wrong....
.....
Baby here he is ..banging on ur front door..
He's hands and knees will be bruise...
He'll be begging for a second chance..."
Modified but taken from the lyrics of 'Backstreetboys Crawling Back to You"...

~ TAMMY OUT!!~

With Lots of Love & Hugs & Kisses & Chris Richardson's scent from BabyT ;