Ups and downs...that's life i guess

Just had a short, silent argument with dad...
I know it'll happen soon enough...
It has to happen. I've been lazing around for too long and i know dad can't take it anymore. he's been complaining to my mum abt me in particular...

I hate arguments with dad because, either i can never say wat i want to say because i'm scared or i just can't think of how to counter him...not because i'm scared but rather i can't structure my points fast enough to reason with him...

So wat happened was i didn't read newspapers...my dad just asked me abt some water concessionaire issue in Selangor and i didn't know about it. I have no excuse except that i am not interested.

Dad said i have no excuse now that i have the internet access and meaning access to online newspapers. Well i'm sorry if i'm not interested in hard news. I prefer to visit sites like Galaxie Blogs and read about upcoming movies and celebrity gossips. He always wants me to benefit from the Internet...yea i do, but in my own ways...

Dad asked me what am i interested in then? He sounded sarcastic and i hv to admit i was fuming at that time. I just don't want to answer that because everyone knows what i've been doing for the past few weeks in front of my laptop...watching movies, watching movies, watching movies...watching movies....watching Boy Meets World, blogging...

i just stunned and just simple blurted out stuff which i dun even remember...

Then he added that he was asking me a direct question and not a sarcastic question. To me, it is very sarcastic. Plus, cut me some slack! I just like the things i like. I dun wanna force myself reading the star online if i dun want to. With all due respect, he wouldn't like it to if i ask him to read about Hollywood stars rite...

Well if i ask him about the latest movie in hollywood or the latest britney's single, he wouldn't know rite?

i know that knowing abt current issues is important but then again...i'm just more into trivial stuff...i get current news here n there...n if i find the interest, i'd read it....but if i dun, i cant do it...

i really try to read the star online, especially when pressured by him. Just so that i can have some decent talk with him but nothing enters when foorce

I dunno. Sometimes, i just feel that the way dad teases people makes ppl nervous and sometimes offended. It's not like he's joking...cuz sometimes i dun get his jokes and doubt if they are jokes. we are really different.

We have different interests....i dun think my dad knows what i really love. or maybe it's my fault i dun share it. but then again...when i talk abt Colbie Caillat's music or taylor swift's lyrics...what do i expect him to say? When i talk about "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" or my fave movies, wat do u think i'll get? He just doesn't see things the way i do. I love analyzing movies and i dun think my dad thinks that that is even important.

I mean, i love my dad. He's a great man but as much as i tried to open up to him, there are still stuff with i can't you know. There is still a distance. I can be very honest in some things but not in all things. With my parents, i still feel that there are things that i can't tell them. Things i can maybe share with my siblings and friends but not them because i dont feel that they can understand what i think and i just want to hear less nagging. They won't agree anyway. If i have to learn a lesson, maybe i'll have to learn the hard way.

Maybe i'll be punished one day and my kids will treat me the same way i treat my parents. But i really hope that i could be like Lorelai Gilmore...i wanna be my kids closest buddies you know...

anywayz...it's not all bad lar..

yesterday...suddenly i got an email from a long lost friend haha... yea i can't believe it myself because he's like the least likely guy who would contact me or any of my other friends...

Mr. Kerry Thong Yu Kit, or like we used to call him....Kerry Thong Sampah suddenly emailed me out of no where...
n today it's like a Ho Seng Ong day for me ..cuz suddenly...i just bumped into all my primary school friends on9...
suddenly i realized that Ho Seng Ong - HSO is like similar to HSM?? High school Musical haha

A lil history and a remisnicence of my primary school life...
i seldom talk abt my primary school (cuz i believe no one really cares) but i had loads of fun during those times...much more than my secondary in fact...
no problems...no worries...it was all free n happy moments for me...
even as a prefect...i was naughty...haha
i was supposed to discipline others but i was part of the undiscipline gang haha

i was ..erm...quite studious i hope haha...but i was a very shy girl in HSO haha...
and kerry was my number one competitor...he's always top in class even though he always skips school
defeating him in tests n marks was my goal...
i just dun like seeing a boy be the smartest haha...typical kids lar...

my best friend then was Evon Tan...also class monitor..hot babe...
she also studied in TARC for 2 years, studying fashion design...
when we were in primary school...our dreams were to be fashion designers...
she pursued it...i went on with something else..yea where i am now...mass comm...lol

but i still rmb those times we had...collecting spice girls pix n posters...forming our own spice girls fan club...performing as spice girls...OMG!

then we have our own spice girls paper dolls, which we draw ourselves...then we would design clothes for them n stuff...it was really really fun. REALLY REALLY FUN..

then we would tease each other...like i'd tease my best friend and her asst. monitor, Krishnan...also not to mention her and Jason Wong were in my list of the most perfect couple last time...y?? let's see

Jason was ahem fat n round (but not anymore haha..wat a waste)....Tan is slim and thin
Jason was short...Tan is tall
Jason was born in December...Tan was born in January...
Jason wears specs...Tan doesn't

They are completely different from on other which made them perfect for each other....lol
but that was then lar...

Time has passed and we've all changed...

Tan is doing fashion design now in Kajang...
Jason in UTAR studying broadcast comm ...course mates with some of my previous TARC mates..
Kerry now in UTAR doing actuarial science...same uni as my bro...
and Sook Chin!! haha another friend of mine, who happens to be hui hsien's close friend in highschool is studying medicine...
THE WORLD IS SO SMALL!
n me...just being me haha...

i guess wat i really found out today is how much we've all grown up and change since primary. I'd like to believe that i've become more confident and more outspoken abt how i feel. I believe all my friends are like that too...

Kerry as i remember wasn't tat chatty...i guess i nvr really talk to him in class lar since he's so shy...except the occasional ejekan...tat's y hearing from this dude was a complete SHOCKER! lol

Catching up with all of them today just reminds me of all those happy kiddy moments that i'll never get relive back but shall always be imprinted in my heart...

Even my college years...i know i'll be forever grateful to have met the people i've met in life....each meeting happens for a reason...so today i guess i'm feeling really grateful for everything that have happened in my life, good or bad...

I was sad earlier but i guess things turned out pretty good at the end, as it always does...

;P