The title itself suggests tat it is a song for a wedding
I really love this track but it is super darn slow and for those of you who really dislike slow monotonous song - beware! Stay away from this song. My bro actually feels that all guests would run away if u play this song in ur wedding....but then again...it's stil a beautiful song, so i think it should make my list

5th October 2008

First of all, I have to say this…I can’t believe that I actually did not watch the greatest war movie (in Hollywood that is) until now. I’m talking about “Saving Private Ryan”, which I guess many of you guys out there had already watched it. Well to be honest, I’m never a fan of war films, sorry, but they are kinda boring. I mean, guns, tanks, weapons and ammos (which are supposed to be bullets, right? is that even the word?) are so not my thing. Haha… I mean, wat we see in war films are all the soldiers in war, and them bombing each other. But war films are usually very touching and inspirational, and that’s the only thing I like about war films. (Besides all the darn hot, macho and good-looking soldiers tat is) So of course not being a war film fan just subdued my drive to watch that movie. When it was broadcasted on TV, I chose to go online and watch Youtube. But come on, it’s “Saving Private Ryan”, an Oscar-winning film! People talk about it and being a broadcast student, how can I not watch a movie like this rite? Plus it’s by Steven Spielberg, one of the greatest and most brilliant directors to ever grace our planet…

The opening scene at the Normandy memorial in France was breathtaking! Notice how the crosses are perfectly aligned and straight. That is actually my favourite scene because of the breathless view and the emotional delivery from the old man who plays the old Ryan. The look in his eyes is so significant and you can tell the pain and gratitude through the eyes. I think anyone who actually visits that place, whether or not they hv relatives buried there, will shed a tear or two. Even I can’t hold back my emotions when watching the last scene. I hate to cry when watching movies. Sigh but had to. Anywayz, in my opinion, this movie also questions one issue besides the insanity of war. Tom Hanks said in the movie…that when he kills an enemy, his rational is, he kills one to save 10 or 20 or maybe 20 times more. But when he sets out on the mission to save Private Ryan, he is sacrificing his team and himself for one. He then adds of course that saving this Ryan will earn him his rights to go home. But then again, as soldiers one cannot actually question the orders of the authority right? Private Reiben played by Edward Burn also said is this private worth risking 8 men’s live for. Even Matt Damon who played Ryan was curious. Why he deserved to go home and not any of his brothers? (meaning other soldiers) I guess he was partially right. But when you come to think about it, it is difficult to determine right and wrong when making these sorts of decision. For one thing, the Army has to consider the private’s mum…the consequences if she loses all her sons. But then, did they consider James Ryan’s decision; he doesn’t want to go home yet. He feels he has responsibilities as a soldier and he wants to fulfill them. He cannot leave his remaining ‘brothers’. But then according to Steven Spielberg the main theme of the movie is how you find decency in war. I guess it’s true. It’s hard to be human when in the battlefield. If you don’t kill others, others might kill you. But to the Tom Hanks who plays Capt. Miller and his rangers, maybe saving Private Ryan is the decent thing that they can do. but i think the mini series "Band of Brotherhood" (which is also produced by Steven Spielberg, together with Tom Hanks) explores that theme even deeper. Everyone thinks it's cool to hold a gun, but i think it really takes guts to actually fire the gun at someone. I can only imagine how it would be like to be in a situation in which u'd have to stay alive under desperate conditions, plan ur next strategy to defeat ur enemy while having to carry a heavy load of weapons. Then when the time comes, you even have to shoot someone. THen when u think back, it's like, the person u shoot could be just like u, desperately afraid and want to survive. but u hv to shoot or die. War brings out the other side of human, i guess one that u urself don't know. i reckon that war is the time that propels one to do things that they can never imagine themselves doing in a civilized world....it's beyond civilization. 

But if we concentrate for a moment on hot guys in the movie rather than the warfare, i recommend u girls to pay attention to Edward Burns. He is so cool in the movie...haha....i dislike him on "27 Dresses", well just becuz i prefer James Marsden. Anyway Edward Burns is so stylish and he really has got attitude in this one. There was also one funny joke he told in the movie...abt boobies hahah....hillarious. It's something like this...he was telling his troop mates abt the most meaningful thing a woman had said to him before basics...she has very large breasts and she was trying on a very tight corset (if i'm not mistaken, i forgot) and she was making her breasts look very ..ahem large. He said he can't stop staring at those things and she caught him staring at her...and she called him over.  She told him...when u go to war, and when u are experiencing the most trial and upsetting times, do me a favour...u think and picture "these" (meaning her extreme boobs). so now he says whenever he faced the hardest of times, he will think of that...and now i bet i will too....hahaha...but dun get misleaded here...i'm not tryin to be dirty...i'm just sharing a joke

                                                              (Oskar Schindler - the man!)

Oky back to serious...I've just finish watching "Schindler's List" also directed by Steven Spielberg. It is another very touching movie, about the holocaust and Nazis. I think that movies like this are the most inspiring and they give us something to ponder on. We should sometimes look back in the tragic historical events and only then will we feel the gratitude of being here today. After watching this movie, i think that this man -Oskar Schindler is truly a hero, not only to the Jews, but i guess to many as well. the sacrifices and the things he had done to save the lives of the Jews at that time - there is no bigger word to describe the kindness of his soul....so let's take some time to pay tribute to this man, who has rescued 1,100 jews and now there are actually more than 6000 of Schindler Jews. It's a black and white movie n i must admit that it is so difficult to hear the words becuz of the German accent. But it would be helpful if u actually go to Wikipedia and search for they brief synopsis first, if u don't mind it spoiling the suspense.

Poldek Pfefferberg is the name of the man who brought up Oskar Schindler to Thomas Kenealley, who wrote the book "Schindler's Ark" and also persistently persuaded Steven Spielberg to make the film. He was the advisor for the movie "Schindler's list". And i love Pfefferberg's quote:

"Schindler gave me my life, and i tried to give him immortality"

Pfefferberg has definitely done so...like how Steven Spielberg put it in his Oscar acceptance speech - he owes Pfefferberg such a debt becuz Pfefferberg has carried the story of Schindler to all of us....very very true indeed....

Til next time

Tammy d awesomist.... 

There was an episode of CSI if i'm not mistaken, in which the police had to investigate a murder case of an Israeli teenager who was tortured and raped. The police first suspect was her father becuz they were stereotyping that Muslims usually are conservative and strict. THey thought the father had to murder the daughter becuz she was a disgrace to the family. (She was pregnant before marriage) The truth is, the daughter was murdered by her boyfriend, who was an American. After the boy was arrested, the girls mother said something very meaningful...because of the stereotypes, they never once suspect their own people. they say that Israelis are heartless and called them terrorists but some of the Whites are also as ruthless. So why aren't we afraid of them? That means, i guess it reminds us that it's not ur ethnicity or where we come from that determines who we are, but rather what we do that identifies us.

“Serendipity” is another nice romantic comedy. The word itself is so meaningful. “Serendipity” means a fortunate accident or a pleasant discovery by chance. I guess this word is linked to the word “fate” as well. I guess when I watched this movie, the question that comes to my mind is….do u believe in fate? If u asks me, YES! Without a doubt but, I’m not those person who will just leave everything to fate. Kate Beckinsale put it very nicely in the movie…fate are signs…we have to read the signs, which will determine what happen. I totally support that. I always believe that things happen when u least expect it. Sometimes I keep wishing for something to happen, and when I just let it go, it happens. I guess when people are meant to be together, be it in relationship or just friendship, sometimes you really have to leave it to fate. Like me and my friend Huey Ning. She’s this really hot chick in my national service camp which I was intimidated to talk to. And little that I know, she would become one of my closest buddy ever, even til now. Music just suddenly connects the both of us. Yuin Yue, my college best friend – I feel tat we have a lot in common when I saw her first time in class. Well for one thing, we ahem…both are short and have almost the same hairstyle. So from far, we kinda look like twins. But I didn’t really talk to her until 1 year later and now we’re besties. I have a strange chemistry that I felt with both of them. I don’t know but I really believe that if things are meant to be, it’ll be in place sooner or later. But that doesn’t mean that we don’t have to work for it. Back to “Serendipity” though, it’s a movie in which Kate Beckinsale who plays Sara leaves her love to fate. It’s like she doesn’t give Jonathan (John Cusack) her number after their first encounter (in which they had a great time together) because she thinks that if they are destined together, they will meet again one day. She asked Jonathan to write his number on a one dollar note and she then use the money. She told him that if that bill returns back to her hand again, she’ll call him. She also wrote her number on an old book, in which she would sell to a bookstore the next day and if the book lands in the hands of Jonathan, then he could contact her. Years past and both of them were supposed to get married to someone else….and suddenly they thought of one another and plan to search for each other again. Of course the girl would have to search for the note and the guy for the book. In the end after some ups and downs finally they found each other. So, I guess fate brought them together…but they have to stil work for it. She has to travel from England to NY in search for Jonathan while Jonathan has to find that book, in whichever bookstore in NY. To wrap things up, “Serendipity” is also a kinda nice, relaxing romantic movie. My favourite character though is Jonathan’s best friend a.k.a sidekick in the movie – Dean. He’s freaking hillarious. Some of his lines were the best!

I’d really love to talk about “Little Nicky” and “Anger Management” but that’s all for now since this post is too long haha…
Anywayz post again soon but not so soon I guess becuz the new semester is starting soon and I will be back in KL with no Internet connection. Life goes on though. I still have mamak stalls and a lot of catch-uping to do with my friends. Till then…take care peepzz…

Muax
Tammy