Sunday, June 17, 2007
Finally the moment i've been waiting for...
After so many semesters in my course in getting a diploma, my final semester has cost me my full scholarship...
I am very disappointed in myself...i mean, maybe because for the advertising paper, i know i could have done better...i feel tat maybe i just did not put enough effort...i dunno...
And now, i can only get a 75% scholarship...i know i should be grateful but then again...it's like, you tot u had it but then when the last semester comes, it just slips right through ur hands...it hurts..
Plus things are not like rosy in college...i mean, a couple of my friends failed, so they can't continue their studies...then there's the fact that you have to readjust to the new environment, with new people from other classes...
i mean i know it takes time but now it's still hard...the assignments are coming in and seriously i already felt the pressure...the problem with me is tat i always hope to be the greatest in things and now the challenge is on ...i feel so crappy that i'm tat kinda person...
now since they are so many great people in class, i dun really hv confident to present in front of them...i dunno why i'm such a person who is so afraid of how people sees me...i know, i just need to be myself...
in times like this, i realise tat having friends like yean fun really is very comforting...i guess in college, she understands me the most...i'm not sure if i do the same for her, but just confiding in her is very helpful...
i guess i just need some new confidence to move on...now it's like i'm way down under...i just hope tat i'll do well in my presentation next week...i dunno why i hv got a feeling i would suck and though i truly hope my intuitions are wrong, i seldom get my wishes...
anywayz enough of being down right...it's time to get up and move on!!!!!
i need to strengthen myself in wateva ways...i could be a few more cups of neslo or maybe more doses of il divo's music...i dunno..
which leads me to il divo now...of course we all know they are 4 hot macho guys who can sing....and i must say i'm in love with them...i dunno why but suddenly i'm so into the classical opera music...it's just so soothing, especially in stressful times like this...go check them out if u like wat i like of course...
if not, you'll be like my sis who considers il divo's music a torture to her tasteless earbuds lol...
anywayz i find mika pretty cool too actually, if you like that kinda fun music...he's not bad...
as for movies, the latest one i watched was pirates of the caribbean 3..i find the ending very sad actually, i nearly cried..i had to hold back tears to not embarrass myself..
but then, it was not like a fantastic movie, i find myself struggling to stay awake at certain parts...3 hours is just too long..
anywayz...tat's all for now..
take care ppl...whoever who's reading
~tammy the magnificent~
;)
With Lots of Love & Hugs & Kisses & Chris Richardson's scent from BabyT ;
Monday, June 11, 2007
Yes i'm back again
this time with not much to say actually..except the fact that i'm having kinda a hard time fitting in at times in college..
well yea, since my personal 'secretary' a.k.a my closest buddy in college, Yean Fun is not continuing her studies here at the moment, her presence is a miss... i mean, i never tot it would actually make a difference whether or not she is here, but now i do feel it...
i mean yea, i have other friends whom i laugh n spend time with, but now i think i realize, even though me and yean fun have disagreements at times, at the end of the day, when it comes to working on assignments and stuff, we work best together..no doubt abt tat...it's the chemistry i think...
now it's like, i'm floating on no where, no direction at times.... i mean, the friends i hang out with now are fun people, but some how or rather, it's hard to get serious or work with them yet..cuz maybe i'm still not used to working with them yet...
seriously, last time, assignment groupings were easy, me and yean fun are inseparable ..though some people thinks it's best to mingle and work with others, we feel most comfortable working together, and i dun see why we shoud work in different groups unless because of circumstance...i mean, working with Yean Fun, together, we produce really good results...
now, it's a whole new different story...
seriously, yean fun will be missed...
so, i think now, i just need some getting-used to time...sometimes, it's like i have no one to turn to...sigh and that stinks...lol
these few days for me is like so weird,...i'm so bored and ...urgh i feel like i hv nothing to do, though actually i can really work on something like note making...but then it's just hard to get started...
anywayz...it's father's day this weekend and thank God i can go home to IPoh...just to relax and enjoy a little....things in college are still not as rosy as i expected but still...well, i believe it's still the adjustment period...i really hope i made the right choice staying in TARC, i mean for my future, i hope it's the right decision...but then i still feel the syllabus here suits me more and of course the environment here is better as well....so i guess i'll just have to see what the 2 years ahead will bring...
well that's all folks...i'm heading back to the hostel now..
just thought i'll crap a little before i go back ...i hv got nothing better to do anyway..
take care...
WITH LOTSA LOVE
~TAmmy the magnificent~
With Lots of Love & Hugs & Kisses & Chris Richardson's scent from BabyT ;
