Yes..finally i'm back...now i'm illegally using the company's laptop to blog...i'm too bored n i hv to go online...
well if u r lost n dun get what i mean, well let me update you on my whereabouts now...
the last time i wrote, i was struggling to make a decision whether to go to UTAR or continue my advance diploma in TARC...well the decision had been made and i'm off to TARC and then UK to get my 3-month degree...well i dunno, i seriously hope it's the right decision...i mean UTAR's campus is really not wat i call comfortable and i can't really imagine myself going there...yes, my friends are so going to get me when they see my ugly face in TARC..i mean, i was the one all this while promoting UTAR n suddenly, i "membelot"(betray) UTAR and end up in TARC lol...well let's just up they'll be lenient on me n welcome me back to college....
anywayz, as i was saying, i 'm now working at my aunt's company, ya as a data entry clerk..not my kinda job but well, since i hv 1 month off, might as well work and get some cash flowing in right? seriously, i know i should be grateful, but then i just feel that i dun really deserve the salary...i mean, i'm not like working for a whole month, only 18 days (in fact less if u deduct the weekends) and i work from home, so it's like i do get to laze around a bit ...well a lot if u ask me... cuz the internet connection at my aunt's house has gone hair wire, so it's like i get a very unstable internet connection, sometimes i can go on9, sometimes i can't..so it's like when i can't go online, i can't work...and i feel so so so guilty and bad when that happens...i dun wanna get paid for doing nothing ...
well at my aunt's place, i hv freedom n get to eat as much as i want as well...so basically this place is already like heaven...n then some more i work not as much as the ppl in the office...well i dunno whether i should feel blessed or guilty...i mean, of course when i get a chance to go online, i work darn seriously...but then for the past 2 days, i really dun hv a chance to seriously enter all the data that i need to enter...and gosh today i found out that the dateline is the 10th..maybe someone should let me know that fact earlier...(or maybe i should hv asked?...i hv no idea)
well ya...so it's really unnecessarily stressful..but i guess that's working life...you take stress ...but then again seriously, working in the office is so not for me...u sud see how i fall asleep today at the office..i kept going to the little girls' room to keep myself 'alive'...even the receptionist notice that i keep goin to the toilet...oh come on, give me a break, i was so sleepy tat i can't even work..so of course i go to freshen up myself...i wanted to take a short nap but then thought, better not...
anywayz...after this working period, it's time to have fun again...my pals are coming down to ipoh!! yay..we're gonna have fun! well hopefully they hv fun...
oh i just missed the times we've had a few weeks ago after exams..the karaoke session, the crab eating, chatting and just the hanging out together, it was a blast...
well of course there was also what i call a 'heart-to-heart' session in which private and confidential matters of each n everyone of us is brought up...for instance, who is dating who, and other craps la basically....well some confront each other with matters hidden inside all this while...as for me, there's nothing much that my friends can interrogate cuz i'm too open...i usually share stuff with them...i've got nothing to hide..well of course there's this recent crush i had, which i'm not sure whether it is or not...but yea, no one knows abt my recent 'crush' (if it is a crush)yet...it's just tat i'm confused myself...how do u define a crush...how do u even define love....gosh...i guess i jus dun hv time to actually analyze that cuz for me...it's like studies first ...so ya..i bet i can forget him fast, cuz i'm really not a one-guy kinda gal i guess lol...i mean, one time i'll be totally into this actor n then suddenly another one..u know, maybe that applies to guys in general as well...anywayz...if i keep dwelling on him, it would be really a waste of time ...besides he already has a girlfriend n MY PRINCIPLE is = stay away from guys with girlfriends...i dun wish to break my principle now or in future....i guess i'm not tat desperate yet...lol...maybe one day when i'm desperate ...u'll find me on those freaking stupid reality tv shows where ppl actually hope to find 'true LOVE'...i find that totally a piece of crap...as if u can in 30 days...*smacks the head*
sometimes, it takes more than a lifetime...lol...btw i just watched one of those reality tv shows on 8TV - Average Joe ..finally the girl actually picked an average joe, whom i think is darn cute in a way (why do i hv a thing for chubby guys? i hv no idea) anywayz..ya if i were her, i'll go for the average joe too...come on..but then again i guess it's kinda hard for her as well right...on one side you hv a muscular-built, good looking guy whom you love to hug (or in her case kiss) and on the other, you hv a sensitive guy who writes poems (aw....so sweet) and is not that bad looking ...jus a bit chubby ...well if i were her, i dun even need to think twice....i mean, of course i go for the average joe...well i dunno how it feels like to kiss a cute guy but then, i think i'm not that shallow tat i pick a guy just because he's a good kisser...besides, i guess when u kiss a person that you love, automatically you feel the magic right? n i love artistic, creative n funny ppl...especially a guy who can sing to me...awww...tat melts any gal's heart....
anywayzz back here....yea..i'm drifting to my fantasy world already....okies i guess i'll get back to work now..since the lines are working...i should grab hold of opportunities, instead of crapping here right??
take carezz people..
love love love you
dun miss me
~ ;) tammy the magnificent out~
