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Monday, May 21, 2007

Another day in the office...well the good thing is, today is the last, but i totally expected nothing to do.
but then, i dunno who the approach for work, since the manager in charged of me has resigned, and she did not pass me to anyone...great! now everyone is busy and has stuff to do, but i hv nothing better to do than do this.
Well, i can't go to my aunt ...you know, since she's like the director of the company, i wouldn;'t want to bother her with these small matters (that i hv nothing to do)
anywayz, since i'm not getting paid a lot of money, i wondered why i work my butt off..i tot i was paid like RM1500 (which of course i dun deserve)...so then i tripled my efforts in the office, but now that i found out that they pay me on a daily basis, i was a little (little only) disappointed and i wonder why i put myself under the amount of stress i went through the last week...well i guess, whatever it is, i still hv to do my work correctly, since it's my aunt's and my image we're talking about here...so i guess, whatever the amount i get, i'll still work my a** off since i care so much about what people think about me..
well, the time now is 8.30a.m. and i hv NOTHING to do...i hv no idea what to think...should i be grateful or guilty..
and i hv to secretly blog...closing this window everytime someone pass...sigh...
anywayz let's talk about an article i read this morning (since i hv nothing to do)
the article was written by rafidah abdullah...well she was expressing her view on the latest MPs sexist remarks...and i couldn't agree more with what she had said...the excuse of such remarks is that "emotions cannot be controlled"...well, i guess to certain extent it can be...and it's wise that we learn to in certain situations...if everyone were to use this excuse...then i believe that all murder cases or rape or whatever crime can be excused, since emotions "cannot" be controlled...for example, i killed my dad because i was angry at him for not buying me a handphone...but then, i'm not wrong because I CAN'T CONTROL MY EMOTIONS at that time...
Rafidah also questions whether women are perceive as 'able to face insult with grace and intelligence' because they are the coller-headed sex. So her big question is, is women wrong when they get angry at laws that affect their lives? oh, but "when man gets angry in the midst of a discussion in an august House of Parliament" they are not ?
Til now, i guess, they are still double standards...
well i strongly believe in women rights, and i hate it when men discriminate women..
for example the other day when i was backing my car, these few men were screaming and shouting because they were afraid that i would knock the car parking next to me...well, yeah, maybe they are just signalling me or helping me...BUT GOSH!!, i saw that bloody car n i'm darn confident that i won't knock into it...so can u guys not look down on me!..jus because i'm a girl and has a 'P' doesn't make me a lousy driver...and not only me ok...seriously, ask urself...male drivers always make fun of female drivers...why?as if they are the best drivers in the world...if they are, tell me, why is it that most accidents involve male drivers?? just because they are daring and would continue driving even though the traffic lights are abt to turn red doesn't make them better drivers, it makes them foolish drivers...
and we, female drivers, get booed for being extra careful when driving...that doesn't make sense to me at all...
but then again, ok, i admit that in terms of physical strength, it's hard for girls to outbeat the guys,..yeah in some situations yes, especially when the guy is a bit 'pondan'...
but we female are also blessed with abilities that guys do not have...so, let's respect each other..
also isn't it weird that when babies are found dead in rubbish dumps (or watever creative places ppl can think of) the mother is to blame? so, what about the man who contributed the sperm? isn't he at fault? why does the mother has to dump the baby in the first place? because she cannot take care of the baby herself...and she has no support from her family or the man responsible...if the guy was responsible, he wouldn't have left his wife with the baby alone...he would find ways and means to take care of his family...dun get me wrong, i'm not saying that the mum is right for dumping the baby, but what i'm saying is that both parents should be charged! if you know that you are not capable of taking care of or afford a baby, (and u really really need to hv ahem...sex before marriage-not condoned by me) can u please at least wear protection or take pills or something...?? then you wouldn't carry the guilt of killing your seed of loins...and then, you won't be tagged as 'irresponsible' right?
and you know what's the worst of all, it's when they say that it's the women's fault that they are rape...bull crap! all these lame excuses are made by guys to help their own kind get out of punishment...just because a girl dresses 'hot' or sexy doesn't give you the green light to rape her...it's like saying, the rich should be robbed because they are rich...

but then, thank God we do hv some good men/guys left on the universe..not many, but still there are ...and they are either married or gay lol...only kidding...
after everything that's said, i guess women need men and men need women, so we balance up each other...

anyway i can't wait for my friends to come to town..gosh, i dunno whether i can make their trip fun and worthwhile or not, i guess i'll try my best ..can't believe you can even have stress when planning holidays lol...who carez i guess, as long as we are together, we can make everything fun...(i hope)
today finally is my last day at work...yes, i've finished the workload for today (i blog in between my work)...and it's only 11.09a.m. and i hv to hang around til 6...argh! no way..i'll try to sneak off in the afternoon, when i finally find the guts to lol...
well let's see...time for some music reviews i guess..as u guys know or may not know, i'm in love with the song "Halo" by Bethany Joy from One Tree Hill...that song is really great...i mean, in some ways i can relate to it (though, yes, that indirectly make me so 'perasan')
tat song is about how people (or rather a particular guy) sees highly of you, that whenever you screw up, it's like forbidden... and then of course in love, if a guy worships you like this, i guess he might be a bit intimidated by you huh? well i haven't felt that before, cuz first of all, erm..no guys had actually fell for me yet...but in a way, i do hv the feeling tat some guys are intimidated by me...maybe i'm just too sensitive and vain, but yeah, sometimes i feel that way...though it's not like i want to love them or want them to love me, but then they talk to me, i hope that they would give me some eye contact...i mean, in communication, eye contact is so important, but i dunno whether they are shy or what, they just won't look me in the eye...now i guess the situation is better...i hope they are not intimidated...cuz when i'm intimidated by someone or feeling shy (especially with darn cute foreigners ;P ), i won't look at the person in the eye as well, but now i try my best to change that habit...
so that song actually talks abt this, like how she is in love with this guy and that she's not perfect so i guess she hopes this guy would forgive all her mistakes...
for me, i guess no one sees this (except my dad), i am actually pretty useless... just because my results in school or college are quite good (but now i'm not so sure anymore cuz i play too much), it doesn't make me perfect...in fact i feel i'm very immature and stupid in many ways..i hate bimbos, but somehow i feel, i'm a bit like them...sigh...and always, i cry so bad when i see myself that way....i speak before filtering through my brains sometimes....why am i like that? sigh...
anyway i guess i'll stop here now...
take care ppl ok?
love ya

~tammy~

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