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Saturday, April 14, 2007

Today was really a bad day for me..
I thought that after one whole week of rushing for my assignments...all those late nites...that i could finally go home...that i could finally relax and have fun...enjoy....be happy
NO! i never had a chance...
i hurt my back after i fell down the other day...i tot it would be fine...but today it hurt...i told mum and all i get was scolding for being careless...
it's just so sad that, ppl just perceive u as careless and never really cared...
i know i'm clumsy, but then again...it's not like i want to fall down or wat rite? i dun wanna hurt myself too but sometimes, s*** happens...
and i just am not in the mood to get this scoldings after i had a disagreement with my dad about me going to college for my advance diploma...
part of me wants to go to TAR college becuz i hv more close friends there...is that bad? to be influenced by people?
also becuz i wanna go to UK ....just for the experience, but dad thinks no...3 months is nothing... well he was the one who say that the paper is not everything, and now suddenly the emphasis is on the difference between advance diploma n degree becuz degree is of higher standard.......
personally, i dun really care becuz part of me stil feels that attitude is so much more relevant...i might be not realistic in that sense but i dunno...
i mean, who is to prove that UTAR is better..i dunno ...and also ..no one can prove that TAR college is good as well...but then from the way i look at it...the good and talented ppl are all staying in TARC...so of course i'm like...attracted right?
anywayz i guess now my focus should be my finals...
it's really tough for me at this point cuz there are so many stuff i need to do..i need to get info on the college in order to convince dad...and of course i want to see a counsellor to help me sort out things cuz now i'm really f***ing confused...
i never tot that i would ever need to see a counsellor in my life...but yea i hope it will help me at least clear things up a bit...
my eyes are blurred ...
face wet...tired and hopeless
i just can't take it anymore..for the first time in my life...i wished i was hanging with my friends instead...and not back home

i guess tat's it for now..
i jus wanna go to bed and not dwell on all these probs..

take care peeps..
love ya
tammy

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