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Friday, September 01, 2006

Cancer – what I call the killer illness has return to haunt my family members. Last time, my mum’s sis a.k.a. my aunt was the unfortunate victim…she didn’t survive…it’s really really sad…Now another incident as such has occurred again to my uncle’s brother…well he’s like my far relative…but we feel the pain too, I mean firstly because cancer has struck my aunt before and we know how it feels like, my mum especially… if you have a loved one, someone so close to you with this disease, the pain is unbearable… as I am writing this it’s like I’m holding back tears, because yes, I do know how it feels like…it’s like you really don’t know what to do….if you put the patient through chemotherapy, the patient will suffer pain…so you think, is it worth all putting your love one through pain before he/she dies? You think again, if you don’t put him/her through chemo, then they really have no chance of surviving…then again financial ability comes into account… life’s really tough…
So now hopefully everything turns out well, all of us are praying for a miracles, and yes, sometimes, though not always I do believe in miracles…
Exams like I said is just around the corner…I am still lazy to start…
And there’s this issue about me where I feel left out by my two siblings…I mean I’m pissed because the things I say never interest them…great! It’s hard and sad that when I am home, I don’t have anyone to share stuff with…
With my sis is even worst cuz we always argue like 24-7, our ideas and personalities clash so bad…I’m the talkative one who talk non-stop, and sometimes without using my brains and she’s the quiet one who feels that talking irrelevant unless necessary…however she can chat a lot with my bro… so I think that it’s my problem I guess…but then again I can chat with my friends easily but find it darn hard to talk to them…like today trying to have a conversation with them was a failure…it’s like they don’t get whatever I said or rather show no interest…I dunno whether it’s me or what… I feel really down…anywayz I think I rather not dwell on this unhappy thoughts and move on….
Hmm some new song recommendations perhaps… actually I am now in love with “When It Comes” by Tyler Hilton

Anywayz I’m just feeling bored to death…maybe its time to go over some notes haha…
Chao people!
Take carez!!!!

~Luv tammy~

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